The last day of two zero zero seven.

Today,its the last day of Two zero zero seven. Everything has an end to it,same goes to everything i had gone thru this year. It also has come to an end. I'm glad,having this year as a growing up point & something for me to understand & to remember,not to make the same entire mistake all over again,let it be a lesson learn. Hence,i've grown up alot thru alot of things. Alot of ups & downs i've been thru this year,it has everything ended at the midnight,twelve today.

Although,i had alot of ups & downs this year. Alot of unhappy things happend too. It will end very soon,i'll throw it to the back of my mind,& tell myself to forgive & forget. Let two zero zero eight a happy & a enjoyable one for me,i wish.

This year,i admit that it's a totally slacking year for me,i din't put in my whole heart to study,instead. I'm fooling around,creating troubles,making teachers mad at me,making a fool of others,like as if we're some clowns that come from the circles. It's enjoyable,yes it's. But,sadly,when it comes to exam period,i din't study hard enough for my last minute work & the results that came back,was totally dissapointing to even mention about it. It sucks like,totally.

Next year,two zero zero eight. It'd be a fresh new year for me,& a whole new beginning for me. I made my vow,to study hard next year & stop all those foolish acts & stop acting like a clown which din't make people laugh their lungs out. This is my vow,i say it,i mean it. I'll balance out my study time & playing time. I'd never mixture time in one bowl anymore. Having the both of it in one bowl,theres only one conclusion to me,& that's the end of my eudcation,equals to,no hope. & i tell you,i won't let this happen,never.

My new year resolution,is to get top five in level position & have a peace of mind & a good enviroment for me to study. & get things that i wanted very much for. (:

Let everything unhappy to marks it's end & turn it into a history. Let the new beginning leads us further in our teenage life. :D

& i confess now. (:

& i confess now,i love you (: ;Linzhilin

I'm thankful,that i'm able to confess my feeling to you guys now. So finally,i've been catching my breathe in this relationship,hiding away from those views & comments that might have about us. I know,i'm very selfish to do that,i'm sorry.

Wondering why i would confess so? Thanks to some random blogs i went to,& after a long thoughts & decision made. (: Thanks to that Random blog & sihua . (:

Perhaps i might have alot of different views & comments from different people,people whom i knew or some i don't even know. I won't further more bother about this anymore. It's now about me & him,if anyone wanna comment about it,i'll leave it to be so.

P.s zhilin : Now,that's all i can do for this relationship. An assured one. (:

Alright,new blogskin. [:
Well,i can't stick to a thing for long time.Hehe,so pardon me yup. :D I'm always so flickle minded laas,i know i know.But you can't blame me on that right? It's not what i wanted,it's nature.(excuse) Hahahas!

Alright,'nuff of craps. Hmmm,actually i din't have much things to blog about,just wanted to post somethings thus i clicked "Posting." Hohoho! & it lands me on this page,so my itchy hand starts to type a loads of rubbish.

I'm damn effing bored for the entire whole day,i'm stoning like usually i would do if i had nothing better to do (Catching my breathe!) Ironed my uniform this morning when i woke up. Three sets in total,like wow,tired manxz! Anyone interested in helping me to iron my uniform? Hahahas! I'm just kidding eh. [:

Hohoho,a few more days to go & it's time for us to return to school alrd! Get cracking with our piles of homeworks & project lohh! Although it's tiring to wake up early in the morning & force our eyelids to open,dragging our heavy feet & unwilling mood to go to school,but i don't know why,i'm still excited about going back to school!

I bet,i won't have much stuffs to talk about anymore,i might not be as talkative as past,why? Cause sihua is not around with me anymore! Someone whom i can turn to when i'm sad,someone i can talk to when i'm bored. We always share the common topics to talk about,like obviously,alot! But sadly,not anymore next year.

I ain't sure if i'm able to make new friends from my new class,3D next year. Cause,lemme tell you,i'm weird of a kind. Yes,i'm! Know what? I'm super duper talkative when i'm with friends i've known for very long & i can joke around & crap with them,yes very much likely. But next year,i doubt so. But well,i still have sheryl! [: Although we ain't that close,but we're still friends what.I'll learn how to be more sociable then,if not i'll be lonely to death. Omg! =.=!! Not forgetting Jungui,kevin,brenda,joyce. They're also in my class. Hohoho! Hope next year din't be a better year that i can look very much forward to,& hope i'd get to know more new friends. [:

Alright,my hand is sending data to my brain to ask me to stop craping as it's getting tired alrd. Hahahahas! Oks,i know it's super crap,but that's me you can't change. :D byebye!

I'm looking forward to Ninteenth January! : D

Ninteenth January!

I'm looking forward to this day manxz!Hohoho!
Twenty-four more days to go,& it's gonna be my sweet fifteen! :D
Hmmmm,i wonder what can i do on that day! ]:

My dream schoolbag!

Hahahas,i'm gonna save up the money,& get it for myself on my birthday! :D Hohoho! I wanna get a new wallet too,hahas! : D

Hahahas! Lemme make my wish now,hehe,i know very kiasu la,but i'm high now ma! :D Ok,now lemme start.

1.To have a lasting friendship with my girlfriends! :D
2.Get good results & get top 5 in level!
3.Get that roxy bagpack,hehe! :D
4.Get w910i!
to be with him alap! :D

Lalalalas,a guy,bully me. Don't let me sleep late. Bad right? I know! :D Hahahas.

Went to see doctor early this morning,so damn early. That sun still havent shine till my butt "chao da" ok! ]: My beauty sleep! ]: Oh ya! Without realising,7 days more to go till school reopen! Omg,happy till siao ok! :D

Meeting sihua like usual in the past. Go school! :D Then meet Dawn,at interchange then to school! :D lalalalas,happy happy happy! :D

Okok,gotta get going alrd! Hehehes,goodnight! Toodle! :D

Hellos,i'm here to post.
Tsk,bad news again & again..
My stupid sister,went to spoil my laptop's keypad.
What the hell right? I know. tsk..

Well,i'm home everyday,what the hell,very boring lorhh! ]:
argggg~ nothing to post,shall post again tmr. [: byebyes! [:

Merry Christmas in advance! [:

It's boring,tonight. ]:

Oh well,it's christmas eve tonight,& it's gonna be christmas soon in 1hr & 45min time. Oh well,i'm stuck at home,bed. Big big pfttttt please! It's christmas eve tonight & i should be celebrating with my friends either tonight or tomorrow,but a big big pfttt again,i can't! Wost still,i'm sick just two days before christmas! What the hell manxz! ]:

So what now,i've gotta stuck my butt at home,bed. Using laptop on,alone,like what the hell. Tsk,i wanna go out & celebrate with my friends lehhs! Wao lao! Forget it,it'd never happen,perharps next year's christmas. Oh~ How long manxz! Tsk,let's wait then. Shucks!

Well,Wish you guys a Merry christmas in advance first. [:

HOHOHO,MERRY CHRISTMAS! [:
It's special,tonight. Lights on! [:

Merry Christmas in advance! [:

I'm bored,thus i'm here to blog.

Yeah,feeling kind of low just now,at 11pm. Yes,obviously.
however,goodnews. I've conquer the battle of moodswing. [:
Three cheers to Felitoh. [:

Alright,shall post again.So,toodle! :D
sorryboy,

I don't fucking know why,why issit that it's always you all,my family members,who don't fucking bother to believe me? I don't know why. Why's that so? Tell me,what have i done so wrong,that you all don't believe me?

I really wish to study hard & get good results for you all to see,but you all just don't fucking bother to believe my new year resloution,it's like,i'm nothing in your eyes. Someone in your eyes,that can never do well in anything.Never. It's only you & your pride in your heart,never was it me. I've never made you felt proud of,i'm just like a bunch of shit to you,worthless. No matter how great i did in my exams,it's never enough.

Many times i asked myself,why should i bother to study hard & get good resutls to let you all compliment me.It's all up to no use,so for what should i do all this? Even though i've gotten a higher marks for PSLE,than other of my cousin,so what?! It's like you're never proud of my achivements,to you,i never did anything that have ever made you proud of.

But i continue,wanting to achieve a better results,this time round,it's not for you all to be proud of,it's just for the sake of me,wanting to win others in my acadamics.I don't admitted that i'm defeated. Never will it happen. It's now all proudness & pride i want for myself, & not for you all. So,forget about that i'll tell you how great i did in my studies next time round,simply forget about it. Yes,all. Just treat it as i never made you felt proud of.

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Goodnight,toodle!

My Day Out With My Girlfriends! [:

M sweet & lovely five girlfriends! Hahas,went out with them to bugis today! Yeah,like so finally after so long since we last met out tgt for shopping. & it's like,wow! Great! Although at the very beginning i ain't in very good mood,kind of foul. But well,after going to neoprint shop,my mood changed drastically! Wow! Haha.

Took alot of neos. Shall upload the neoprints picture asap. [: Don't blame me if i'm plain & way to lazy to do so. Cause,i'm a damn damn lazy! Hehe,pardon me. [:

Went to pepperlunch-express at bugis,chit-chatted awhile & off we went,home. However,it's only me,junli & wenxuan heading back home. Sihua & teojiahui went off to bugis street once again. I don't know what teo wants to buy. Hahas!Well,gotta rush home due to mom's call. She's like having he moods on high hikes. Omg,shouting & screaming like mad over the phone. Fyi,i ain't deaf las. I can hear,needn't shout. So,what to do? Gotta obey her rules & get home asap lor. Sigh,it spoils my mood like so totally can. Tsk,i hate it so damn much laas. Hate those curfews,those naggings,those shouting & screaming over the phone,rushing me to get home asap. Like,whrtever! =.=! She's always like this,never change. Nairmind,i shall wait till i'm old enough,to go out as late as i want & to stay out at late night. Hurmps! [:

Oh ya! Girls,sorry but i've got a piece of bad news for you girls. Perharps,i can't join you girls for christmas celebration this coming week. I'm utterly sorry about it,the main reason is cause of my mother. Yeah,she kind of having foul moods now & then recently,can't change the way she's always giving me curfews & groundings. I know it sucks,but well,what can i do? But to obey her words lor. Bo bian. So pardon me. & enjoy your outing & celebrations alright. [:

Soon,after christmas,i'm going to get my uniform,so damn long can! Tsk,how long do they need to make my uniform arhs?! Two months alrd lehs,wao lao! Damn it! I'm craving for my new uniform oks! tsk tsk tsk. Oh ya! I'm broke now! No much money left with me to buy my school shoes! Die! Can't let my parents know,if not,they din't kill me. Hohoho! >:/ Sorrys,but sorry las! I gotta buy presents for my god brother,as his birthday is coming & moreover,he's my best didi oks,although we ain't very close? xD

Well,i still have yet to get my new bag pack & pencil box & my wallet! Sucks! & i want denim shorts & skirts & tube dress! arghhhs! so many things to buy,so little money to spent! Tsk! >:/ & my numurbanmale havanians! I want it! Omg laas! yeah! & without me realising,very soon,it's going to be my birthday alrd! omg! So damn fast right?! & soon,i'm going to get my NRIC alrd,when it's my birthday! Hohoho! I've got pink! [: Hehes,don't get jealous by then eh! Hahaha,soon it'd be your turn,hehes! [:

Alright alright! It's 3.04am in the morning now,& i'm still wide awake & blogging at my cousin's house. hahas! She's sleeping like a dead log now. Oks,gottaa get going,shall post up soon. [: Goodnight earthlings. Love ya! [:

this is not the perfect blogskin i wanted,gonna get it changed again,so let's wait & see. [:

Alright! Misunderstanding cleared!
Best Friends Forever! Our friendship will never be less than one minus two. [:

Marshmelloweans :
Pangsihua!
Teojiahui!
Khorjunli!
Ngwenxuan!
Feliciatohyinghui!

LOVE!

4 Years & still counting relationships,it's not gonna end like that.

Ps Teo/Wen: I din't expect everything to end up this way. I din't know that the tone that day i had on you,you mistooken it as i was venting my anger on you. I really don't know. I was seriously just kidding. Perharps i sounded harsh,but i really din't expect that. I din't expect that it's a form of rudeness or venting anger. I'm sorry for that,i apologise & as for the sentosa thingy,i also hereby apologise for the last min back out. Sorry.

it's a four years & still couting relationship,i won't let it end just like that. It's my fault,& i know i should & must apologise for it.Yes,i definately does,still treats you as my BESTFRIENDS,the five of you,it's definately a yes.Sorry,i knew,the feeling of being ps-ed isn't good. I know the feeling. but i'm really sorry,there won't be the next time anymore,i swear.

I knew,this small little stuffs made alot of unhappy start between the five of us,i know. Sorry teo & wen.

I promise,i won't let this fours years & still couting friendship to end like this.I'm sorry.

Hi earthlings.

Feeling rather down this few days. Just couldn't figure out the reasons that made me so. Hopefully i'm able to cheer up bahs.

Yes,i got my job quitted yesterday. & yesterday was my last day at CELCOATINGS. Yes,that place is real boring,& deadly. However,it's because of that place,i gotta know alot of new friends who treat me really great. I'm glad that i have sucha good friends. Without them in CELCOATING,it's absolubtly a no motivation to go to work. Can you imagine,that you gotta sit at that place for hours long & facing that metal parts like an idiot? If there isn't any entertainment from them,it's like,i rather not work anymore please.

However,although it's really a very dreadful place to go to,but i still miss them all. Yes,even the uncles & aunties there. Some uncles & aunties treat us really good & the cheenas over there ain't as bad as we always thought of. yes,i really couldn't bear to leave that place. & yeah,defiantely if we're fate,we'd meet each other someday. (:

Of course,i felt really sad for that cheena hunk. Like,omg. So what if he's a cheena guy? Can't he be a boyfriend of dorothy since dorothy has alrd confessed her feelings to that guy? & now,she's trying to say he's not her cup of tea because he's cheena. -.- Like,whatever?! How can you be sucha person? Tsk,why i've gotta know her manxz?! But well,luckly it's the last day at CELCOATINGS. (:

After my last day work,i went home to have a bath & a change & then out to IMM. with my friends. yeah,went to IMM to eat Ljs. & then we chatted for a period of time & then off we go,sending xinyi to her tuition at JustEducation at somewhere near jurong entertainment centre. Afters,we went to watch people at Fuji ice skating place to watch people there ice skates. & off we go,HOME.

Stood in the middle of the path way to decide where what transport we're taking. & at last,we decided to take MRT back to Boonlay & went to jp for awhile to find jinghui sista's psp cover. But she din't buy,it's way too expensive when yanzheng can get it at a price of 10$ for his psp. & that fellow sell 18$! Omg!

& then went home,took 243W home,phyco jinghui to take 243W with us as she wanted to take 243G which it's having a long queeue. Sista,don't liddat laas,accompany us laas (: hehe.

Back home,changed & on my laptop & started blogshopping & replying tags. Chatted with jinghui sister on msn for a moment & then chatted on phone. Yes,feel great chatting with her although it's the first time i chat with her on phone.& cheer up oks? Don't get too upset! & the secret lies within us only oks? keep it tight,don't slip it out oks? Thanks you sister! (:

& then,i had a diarrhoea and then was sleeping like a log. DEAD. -.-! Stomach pain like what the hell. Squat in the toilet & fell asleep there! Omg right? I know i know. cannot blame,too tired & my stomach is way tooo pain. thus i squat in the toilet & then....fell asleep! -.-!

Don't know why,i kept sleeping today. It's like i'm so tired,way too tired to even move myself outta beddy. Woke up at 1 pm today i suppose? & then went online & offline. & then went to have a piece of cake ate & then, at about 3 plus,i went to sleep again! woke up a four plus as my stomach is real pain after eating the maggie mee & ice-cream. Tsk,if not for my greedyness of food,such things wouldn't have happen alrd laas. :( Neverrmind! I'm fine now! :DDD

Hohoho,just finish my dinner not very long ago,and i'm here posting & updating my blog. Yes,don't wish to let readers to think that i'm letting my blog rotting away. & also,peepo,my bestfriend is opening up a blogshop,currently selling second hand goods,but in a good conditions. So if you're interested,go & have a look then .(: Visit now!

Alright,gotta get my feet shuffled & get going alrd! Byebyes! (:

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Sigh,i don't know why,it seems like the bonding between gay & i is drifting away. I ain't sure why too. It's the strong feeling that told me so. I don't want it to happen,seriously. I don't know what to do. & also,the bonding with teoteo,junjun & wen,it's drifting apart so desprately now. I'm so loss,i really hope,my friendship with them will last thru a long period of time & it'd still be as close. Girls,i miss those times together so much. When will it return? I don't know. Drifting! :(
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Ps. : Gay,it's not your fault,don't keep saying sorry or words that sounded so guilty alright? I'm perfectly fine,i din't be ok soon. I'm strong girl ok. (:

Well,got home at 6.50 plus. Gone to work like usual. & tmr's my last day there. Like so finally,i'm leaving that hell-ly place. Lols!

I'm seriously tired. I don't know. i just don't wish to involve in relationships,it makes me feel so uneasy & so insecured. Seriously,i had enough of hurt,times & over again. I really wish to know why. Why guys famous sentence din't never change. Forever it'd be the same old sentences/phrase. "I promise,i'd never leave you. Never. Trust me." Do you think i dare to even believe in this word again? Sorry,it's no more. I'm so sorry that it's really no more. Not even say trying.

Pfttttt,had so much of emo post recently. Omg! i should stop all those emo post manxz! It'd be killing people off laas! Tsk,

Alright,that's about it for today. Do takecare & bye! (:
Yes,i do. But sorry,i can't.

hard to believe,pftttt!!

Ok,posting time!

Yep,like usual,working today. Raining quite heavily this morning while i was about to get out of the house,or should i say,it's raining quite heavily & is just that i don't know about it? Hahas,no choice,i'm too pig.Haha,you can't blame me for that. Blame my parents for it,bringing up sucha piggy daughter up. Haha!

Dorothy & joey,that two funny girl din't came to work today,& i ain't aure about the reason why either. Hoho! Hope that they din't be back soon tmr,misses their lame jokes. Hahas! :D

Well,i just got home not quite long from guitar lesson. Met Teojiahui after guitar lessons to have our dinner ate @ Newgekpoh catering. Alright,the food there..uhm,not quite bad,still up to my standard = Accpectable. (:

& then,walk back home with them. Yeah,missed those times with them. Hardly can we spent so much time tgt. Just recently manxz. I thank god for the chances he created for us to let us girls,gathered tgt to enjoy our simple meal. Though it's a short & less convo one,but i still love the feeling,though it's feeling abit weird,without talking to each other like how we used to chat in the past. But i'm sure,the feeling will soon be over & we'd be back to the same old days. (:

Like usual,went blog hopping around my girls blog. Came by sihua's blog. Read her most recent post. Posting about "Forever" , "Girls" & etcs,kind of forgotten about it. But well,this caught my mind, after reading her post,about guys promises. Yeah,i kindda agree. Promises made,should be hold & held with. But sadly,there currently isn't any promises made that is being fullfilled. But well,i suppose this is humans' nature. Promised you so firmly,that they din't never leave you,never to stop loving you,but it's all fake. Yes,totally. I effing agree too,that there isn't such thing in this world called Forever love. Never. If you gonna believe in such things,i warn you,to be very careful then.

Yes,i gone thru all the hurt before. Yes,very much likely,i'm now facing problems trusting guys. i really ain't sure if guys i known can be believed or not to. I really don't know. Now,for this,it brings me a big headache. Pftt,i really ain't sure what to do.

A heart can't possibly when it wasn't even a whole to start with.
A heart that broke,din't even had emper time to heal,came another situation.
A heart,locked so safely,that the goods guy(perharps) can even enter fully.

I seriously don't want to have another hearbreak-age anymore. The hurt i had before,is more than enough for me to deal with. I'm now,not finish healing my wounds,there came another
problem. Tell me what to do,will you? I'm so scare that i might hurt you for the situation i can't be sure of. I really need help in this.

Oh well,enough oof emo posts. It sank my heart down. So,stop it! Now,lemme announce a good thing! But kind of sad for me though. & that's. I'm quitting this friday! (: Hahas! Good news to you guys eh? but sad thing for me.

No work = No money,No Jinghui jiejie,No dorothy,No joey,No zhilin.
No JOKES & LAUGHTERS~! No more~ :(

Sigh,but i suppose it's time for concentration for studies alrd ba.

Alright,it's 9.40 now everyone. I suppose i shld end my post here alrd. Do take good care everyone. It's not a very good weather these days. Goodnight! (:

Towning with my precious girls! :D

Went towning with my precious clique girls :

Teojiahui!
Pangsihua!
Ngwenxuan!

They're someone i can never forget okay! :D I love go towning with these girls,& also not forgetting,my other girl,KhorJunLi. :D Hahas,see..you're not forgotten ok! :D

Hmmm,let me eleborate what we did yesterday then. :D Here i go..

First we went to cineleisure to shop around. & then to pasta mania to have our lunch. Hahas! & Tjh,Nwx,Psh. They ate Bacon(?) Aiya,something like spahgatti. & then i'm the only who ate pizza! :D Yummy oks! :D Hahas. & then again,we go shop ard for about 5 mins & we proceed to The Hereen(?) .

& then,from there,we saw alot of people,at NewUrbanMale shop snatching their havanians & flipflops. Omg,is like,crazy~ Felt like buying one havanians for myself,but i can't spend my money away just like this when i've gotten money.

& then,Tjh & Nwx brought the same bag. me & psh brought the same bag too. Yeah,thanks to psh phyco-ing me,& my 29.90$ fly away~~ Hahas! Even though i really like the bag,but my heartaches man! Hahas!

& then proceeded to fareast plaza. Went there shop around & then teo brough a tube & supposingly she wanted to get a cardigen,but none she likes. Thus,she dint brought any. Perharps the next time round to bugis,we might buy ba. Hahas!

& for me,i brought a Polo-tee shirt for someone. Yeah & met him after i reach jurong,at the bus-stop. & i pass him the shirt.

Alright,it's all about it.Hmmm,lemme think about what i should buy next time round! :D

I need/wanna & wish to buy ..

• NewUrbanMale Havanians(White)
• Electric Blue Cardigen.
• Demin shorts
• Demin skirts

& alot more,like blouse,printed tees,roxybagpack & ipod nano! Yeah..Alot right? It'd cost me a bomb manxzs! :( Tsk. Nevermind,forget it! :(

Surprise!? I got online today? Why din't i work? Hahas. Oks laas. Cause i'm late for work & also,i'm kind of sick alrd. Headache & gastric pain. I'm super hungry now! :(

Oks then,i shall end here. Takecare,toodle-oo! :D

It's like all reminisces.

Hi earthlings! :D

I'm going to town later on with :
Pangsihua.Teojiahui.Ngwenxuan.

Yeah,i suppose we'd be crazy womens later on manxz! Hahas,like usual. We're always so crazy when we meet each other. I suppose it's cause,it had been a long time since we get a chance to get out & it's like,so hard then can we get out shopping.

I'd treasure the times with the girl. But having mens. It' makes me feel so weak. Sigh,did thought of not going with them & back-out the very last min. But i din't cause someone asked me to go & enjoy with them.So yeah,drop of the idea & go with them.

Speaking about yesterday. I went to Houyu korkor's house @726. Somewhere near my house. Yeah. I went over there & he teach me science. Hahas & we had alot of fun. It' has been so long since we last chatted so happily alrd. Yeah & it's great chatting with him. Like past,he still dotes me alot. He's still treat me as good. & i went to his room ,wanted to play PS2 in the first place. But end up,non of the games he had suits me to play. So..i asked him to Download Auditionsea to let me play at his laptop. & he really went to download for the sake of me. :D hahas,thanks korkor! & i while he's checking out the NBA stuffs & downloading the game,i was lying on his bed,waiting for time to past & for the game to be finish loaded. & like finally...

GAME FINISHED DOWNLOADED! :D

& i played audition,& he sat beside me,watching me play. & i told him to try. Hahas! I laugh like mad laas,he looks funny playing audition. He said he's very slow in reaction. Indeed,he's VERY SLOW.hahas! & then i went to jiejie's room to play audition with her,as korkor wanna sleep alrd, & it's 9+! ok! He said he wanna sleep,& he have yet to have his dinner & he wanna sleep. Omg,he's uber pig! Tsk tsk tsk.

& i & jiejie play audition like some mad kido. Hahas! Bo bians! We're getting too high when we got a chance to see each other. I miss those childhood times. Yeah & i still wanna say. This two cousin of mine,is still the best,& i love them really alot. :D

Well,i've got secrets,that i've decided t let it unknown. I don't wish t let too much peepo t know about it,as i seriously want t concentrate on my current studies. Other than that, i don't wish to hear any rumors about my current life that might affect me t study. I just want to study real hard & get top few in level position on any occasion of exams. & i seriously wanna improve on my english. I wanna strengthen it. I find that,english is much more important than chinese do. Yes,definately it's. But soon,both didn't be equal level of important-cy. Meaning,i musn't only strengthen my english & also my chinese. I gotta brush up on my chinese like,so damn damn much. My chinese is like worst of a kind. Gotta brush up! Add Oil Manxz!& well,woke up at about 9 plus this morning. Yawnxz! Din't work today,as today we,students, needn't go for work. For some reasons being. Lazy to explain/elaborate it. :D & then i wanted to sleep until the sun gonna shine on my butt,then will i get up. But too bad. I've gotta go to school & buy my Sec 3 books next year. Yes,& also my school shoes. Before we got to school for the books. We went to DBS BANK to get the money. $414.47 . & i've gotta use my OWN money to buy my school textbooks & school shoes. Like pathetic me right? Pampered me then. :D Ok,back to topic. & then,the total cost of the book cost me , $190 plus. & i'm left with $200 plus. & i brought a skinny jeans & a converse shoe. Not school shoe fyi. Wanted to get converse school shoe in the first place,but mother disagree to it. Like what the fuck laas! I wanna buy,it's my school shoe lehs,not hers. Why must she even bother so much ar?! What the hell pleasezx! Tsk! But ended up,i brought a turquoise coloured shoe. It's mainly white & the secondary colour is turquoise. Nice ok! :D & i've planed. I've planed to ask my father to buy me school shoe from converse. I die die also want to get the converse school shoe,i don't care! Not using my money for my school shoe this time,is my father's! Since my mother don't want to get it for me,then i shall get my father to get it for me then. :D I want two converse school shoe,i don't care! I'm not going to get my school shoe yet! I'm gonna drag until the very last minute,then will i ask my father to go with me & get the converse school shoe! :D Yay-ness manxz! Ok laas,i know i'm very bad to planed this laas,but who ask my mother,i wanna use my own money to buy converse school shoe,she also don't allow,then too bad lorr. I've gotta use my father's money alrd lorr. :D I'll just choose the shoe i want,then i try & then i stand there to get ready to collect my shoe & father pay. :D Whooooo! Love it manxz! Godxz! :D& back home. Raining like usual. & i packed my book slot. God,i've got 4 big bags of rubbish from that slot to be thrown away. Alot right?! I know i know. & the dust is like, omgzx! Make my nose damn itchy. Bo bian,very long din't clear that slot alrd. Sorry laas,plain too lazy. :D Hehes,but at least i clear it alrd laas. :D & then i helped my books to put the book protector cover. :D & pasted the name sticker on my books,with my name on it. :D So cool i tell you! :D Hehes. & like tmr,i'm going to my cousin house @ 726. Cause he's going to teach me science for the time being & mathematics next time perharps. Cause you know,the mathetics textbook of mine is out of stock. Thus,this way,it's hard for him to teach me without textbook. So,i told him to teach me science first. :D

Alright,here. I shall end my post. :D Takecare,toodle-oo! :D

I Found A Long Lost Blood Sister! Hahas! :D

Hi to earthlings that are still wide awake :D Here's a big fat smile to you! Hoho!
Sorry,haven't been posting recently nowadays. Busy uhrs. =X Hahas,sorry anw. Hmmmm,when's junli gonna be back? I miss her so so much! D; Come back soon,laogong. I miss you! D;

& peepos! I recently found a long last blood sister! :D Hehes! She's TohJingHui! & I'm TohYingHui! :D Kekekes,i love her to the maxz ok! :D & yeah,she's cute,fun & loving of course! :D & pretty tooo! I love you,sister! :D

Hahahas,i'm tired like,one of a kind laas. D; But anw,just to post about me having a sister! :D That's the main point! :D

Specially for my Laogong! KhorJunLi! [;

P.S! KHORJUNLI! :

Junli,i've know you since primary school. You became one of my daily nessisity(spelling error,sorry arh.) in my life. You became one of the marshmellowens. You're in our clique. Though i din't inform you about my daily happenings in my life,but that doesn't mean you're not important to me. You're still as important to me. I know,perharps my previous post sounded like,you ain't important to me,cause i told only three persons about what's happening in my life only. But that also,at th same time. Doesn't mean that you're not important to me.Wanted to share with you,but you ain't in singapore currently,wanted to tell you only when you reached singapore & then we'll sit under my block & have heart to heart talk session after guitar lessons.I know you really wanna know what's happening in my life,i can tell you everything after you come back to singapore. & also,sihua & me decided to go your house ton at the 25 dec till 28 dec. 3days 2night at your house. Then 25 dec we go orchard shopping till midnight,then go back your house ton.(: I promise you,from now on,i'll tell you everything that has been happening in my alright? You're my KHORJUNLI oks. [;

I LOVE MARSHMELLOWENS!

• Pangsihua
• KhorJunLi
• TeoJiahui
• Ngwenxuan

Although there's more than this names to name it out. But they're my cloest friend of all. I love them to the max. Without them in my life,my life ain't in the full shape. Without them,i don't think i'm able to go thru the worst day of my life. With them ard,i feel great. I can forget about the unhappiness i once had before & enjoy the times & happiness they can bring to my life. With them,i only had laughters,& nothing else.Girls,you're that powerful that only you guys make my very wonderful day. [; I LOVE YOU, GIRLS! [;

Issit true? Hard to believe in love again.

Hey! Din't work today. Decided not to work today,as i'm utterly tired. Tired like crazy. Omgxzs! :( Hmmm,so how are you guys doing? Fine? Hope so yeah.

It's hard to believe again,i don't feel safe in anyway. Even though it's you. Yeah,you said you'd help me,but it's the action i need to see,not words that i want without actions being done.

I'm fucking afraid of guys touching me,cause of some incidents in the past i gone through,thus,i'm afraid of guys touching me. I'd get very tenses up & i might cry. Don't bother to ask me why. Cause only three person in my life knew about it. & also,i needn't tell you who's it,unless you'd be my very close friend. But even some of my SUPER DUPER close friend,i also din't mention it to them. If you know it,meaning you mean alot in my heart,understand. [;

I don't know how to believe in love again,guide me along.I'm so hurt,how long am i able to heal my wounds? I ain't sure,but i promise. I'd try my very best. Don't bother to lie to me,cause i'm way too sensative. Don't blame me for that.

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Alright,i wanna help someone to rant about him.

To,jerk!(If you happen to came by my blog & happens to read this,i suppose you know who you're & i'm giving/saving face for you by not mentioning your name out,here in my blog!) :

Yeah,some kind of jerk he'd be. Trying so hard to woo her in the first place,& then when he'd got her in his hands,he treat her worst than dirt. It's all his hobby's fault? Yeah,definately it'd be his hobby's fault. Why? Obviously,it's because. He can simply go for gaming for 5 hours straight & fucking expect her to wait for him like an idiot when she's alrd so sick. & fyi. it's not the first time she'd be waiting for him. It's always her waiting for him & not the other way round. Like hello! Imgaine,it's the guy who should be always be waiting for girls & not girls waiting for guys instead. Who you guys thinks you're? What big shot you're to us girls? Expecting us to wait for you like an idiot when you're there, happily enjoying your hobby. & it's like,you're alrd 14 years old. Going on 15 next year,can you guys be like,more mature? I knew you guys can't. Cause you guys are self-centered guys,who'd only think about how you feel & not how we girls din't feel. & it's not the first time i warned you to be good to her. & how many times have you did this to her? Who do you think you're to treat her this fucking way? Many times i saw her crying to me,telling me how sad she's. Do you know,i feel hurt too. Cause the way she told me how you treated her,i think you're fucking way too overboard! & i'd be warning you,she's not your pupet,for you to control in anyway you wanted her to be. For many reasons,she's being hated by your good friends who use to treat her very nice in the past,hate her for the who she's now. All thanks to you,who made the who,she's not. Din't allowed her this & that. Even small tweeny weeny problems,you also wanna find fault & give her cold shoulder. You can hate me for all you want. Cause i'm seriously taking this down in my heart for very long time alrd. & it's really time i should tick you off for what you did to her. It's like ENOUGH! Seriously enough lemme warn you. Don't even think of having her back or tying her to yourself when you haven found another girl you like. Don't try,go breaking her heart another time. I'm serious. Don't lemme know how you'd treat her again,i'd break you into pieces,lemme warn you. I told you & warn you before,treat her well,if not i'd kill you. & i suppose you might think i'm kidding. But fyi,i'm NOT! I'm damn fucking serious. I hate guys doing this to girls,they ain't even up to match with beast. Even beast dotes on their other half more than you,this kind of jerk. Better don't lemme know you go breaking her heart again,last warning to you!

To her : Get over this jerk,he's not worth so much of your precious time nevertheless to say,your tears. It's totally a waste! I'd rather cry for a dog who is being ran over by a car,then this jerk. He's totally way too overboard. I warned him many times,it's him. Who din't take my words seriously to his head & installed it. All he knew was to ask you to wait for him to be back & after he's done with his game,he came back & told you he's tired & wanted to get to his bed for his nighttime & chucking you aside once again,treating you like what? Worst than a dog? Whom didn't listen to it's owners every single word? No! He's no longer you owner for now & forever. He don't worth you. So,you! Get back up in track,stand stronger than before. I promise i'd help you & encourage you. I said it,i mean it. You know,i take my words seriously. Cheer up ok! [ ; Feel free to come talk to me if you're troubled. I'm always here,girl. [ ;
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