Could what i believe true enough for me to actually believe?

Alright,back home. Went out with baby today,to...Orchard & Bugis.
One word to describe,my leg is damn damn tired. :( Anyone,buy me a iSqueeze. LOL.

Well,suppose to get what i want. However,when i reached Bugis,i seems to be just strolling & walking passby the shops,each and everyone of them. Looking at them,wondering what i wanna get. LOL! Ended up,i gotten nothing. :( Again okay. :(

Perhaps i go on my own next time,yeah..

Well,before going to Bugis,we went to Wisma. Ate ice-cream,yummylicious. (: & then Baby headed to Flesh Imp. He brought two tee shirts at $39. (: He gotten his,i've yet to got mine. :(

Afterwhich,suppose to head back to Orchard to help my momma to get the Camera,however. Due to my laziness,i din't. :( Trained back to Jurong instead then suppose to go back home,then decided to go to Baby's house to play with his brother. HAHA. They showed me their baby photos,those pictures are really cute. Esp Long Long(Baby's bro.) HAHAHA,it's seriously cute pleaseeeee. HAHA.

Aftermath,i headed home...

HOME SWEET HOME. (:

Even if.

I've typed alot,but i backspaced alot too. Nothing to post,i'm just dead bored. Life is getting a bit offtracks. I'm just hoping for better tomorrow. (: Bye.

All, it could be all over.

"I realise, he's everything you wanted. He's the most you cared about. You ps-ed your friend just because of him. I guess you only needed him. well, that's fine with me. cause i no longer cares. & the reason why i hated him so much, is because, ever since he stepped into your life, you've changed drastically. Since he's the first thing in your mind, so be it. I've got no comments & i wouldnt bother stuff like this anymore. I've grown up, i'm independent."
Adapted from (you know who.)

You said you're a grown up girl,you said you're able to live on your own. Yes,indeed you said all this. But you don't know how much i felt behind all the scence. You don't realise a single shitxzo. You told me to be with him,then you said you dislike him,then you said you don't wish to bother anymore. Tell me,what is all this? Bullshitxz?

Why everyone is that same pattern? Why can't you all understand? Why do you girls hafta use that so nasty word 'ps'? Is that the only word to describe? Is it so? Is it? Why you couldn't you all just understand? You,you should understand more,but infact,i realise you don't. Is ps that word really that nice to you? Did i ever ever once used that word on you,anyone of you? Did i? Or maybe i did,& could have forgotten. But in my memory space,i remember i don't. But you girls? Use that word as & when you like it. Can't you all just be more mature & stop using the word 'ps' ? It sound like a total kiddish.

Forget it,carry on...

Everytime i could stand by you,i lend you my shoulder to cry on,i did all my best for the bestest friend,we once said nothing could do us apart. Have you even forgotten it all,so? It's just less than a few months,you said i change. I knew i change,who told me to treasure him,him,him? Who told me not to gave up? Who,who,who?

I din't know that once she stepped into your life,you too,changed. I stop myself from blaming her & you,cause i knew it's all my fault. I'm trying to aviod you & you. I knew you'd be reading all this. I knew,but i don't care. I just wanna post out how i feel.

When i'm really down,where were you? Yes you're once being there with me when i was really down,really facing the down slopes of life,you're there for me,i knew it all. I see it as a gift from heaven,at least someone i could confide on. But it's no longer this way. No longer how we used to be.

From the us,we could chat almost anything,everything. Till the us,we couldn't even have a proper talk. Somehow a talk could lead to a quarrel so something. I'd rather we don't talk or even interact.

Tell me,is this what you so call nothing could do us apart? & we even hooked our fingers,saying that not even a single guy could do so? Din't you? I think you forgotten that night,i bet you really did. All you think of is not about 'Felicia' anymore,is about '____' . Ain't you? But did i even wanna mention this to you? Thanks god for those hints,you did catch the lil' tweeny weeny bits of hints. No,not just lil' bits,but alot infact.

That past,i hated him to the maximum,did i even quarrel with you over him? Did i still not listen to you & try my way out to 'accpect' him? Din't i? Din't i!

Just a one paragraph,you push all the faults to me,what do you think all this is? You treat this like a kindergarden 'Friends Game' ? I can tell you,i don't treat it this way.

You're once my bestest friend,my bestest confide,bestest listening ears. But i could say,it's all so yesterday,you never wanna become one anymore & never will be there for me anymore cause you had your new confide,new lisetening ears,new pair of shoulders. I'm worn out,dirty & thrown aside.

Is this just the end? It's not just me alone to decide.

Is the a Friendship Game for you & me? I thought this won't come to an end,but somehow i knew,it's all ending soon. It's all no longer like before.

You said you realise? But infact you don't. You don't know a single shitxzo. You just knew 'my faults x 1000'. I knew,yes i knew the very best of you & i helped you when almost everyone turns their back on you.

It all gets better in time.

Well,i just got home..not quite long ago (Roll eyes upwards and think real hard) Ya,i guess so. HA. It's all so randomxzo. :DD I feel like eating Fries again,shitxzo okay,in the way i'm eating & eating,i'm no way gonna get my fats burn off okay! >:( Fancy there's still people saying i look like a bamboo when i don't even look like one >:( Are all this 'suan-ing' or complimenting? :(

Oh well,meet up with baby today & pei him for 3 hours straight. >:D Heh heh,i'm always with him & i'm very happy that i'm. :D I skipped guitar today,& today's my last lesson. Baby,very big scarifice hor! >:DD Heh heh,for you only neh. :D

Nin neh,i wanna eat fries lehh. >:(

Okay,eat dinner with baby & went off to playground & slack. That play ground is clean and cool,can consider going there again next time. Big somemore lehhs! & it's really windy when it comes to the night time. :DD

Going to bugis this friday with baby accompanying me. :D I lurbbbexz Babyxzxz! :DD I'm going for a shopping. Momma sponser lehxz,why not! Ha. Maybe going to singapore expo tomorrow because there's a Popular fair there,going there to buy assesment books to do during school holiday. Momma don't wanna me to go work,so i don't go lor. Take it as i accompany my momma & i can help her do house work. :) Lemme be mummy's lil' girl. :DDDD

Alright,i needa go already. Takecare peepoayes. <3

It feels so free & better off without ______. Or am i just deciving myself?

Popped a sweet. 8)

Alright,i'm going out now with momma. :D
Ask her buy clothes & stuffs for me,hooray! (Insert Big Fat Smile)
I'm happy happy happy. :D

Alright,gonna rain soon.
Takecare peepoayes! Remember to bring a brolly out! :D

*Pooofff*
Bye.

I've popped a sweet in my heart,i seems so sweet now.. :D

It'd be too late to turn back time.

Well,i'm having some kind of gastric problem again i guess? Cause i don't know why,i keep wanting to vomit alot. :( I ate,i wanna vomit. No,not like what you thing that sort of stuffs okay. It's not P_______. -.- Definitely it's not,duhhh.

First was diarrhoea,secondly was bad headache that make me sleep the whole entire day today. Freaking hell stupid please. I feel so tired now,& i still feel like sleeping. :X Now,here comes the gastric problem. What-the-hell please. :(

Rawr,i don't wanna say anymore. My eyes hurts,i wanna go to my bed & lie down now,my gastric don't kind of feel well. :(

Bye.

If letting go could be the best resort.

Alright,i sleep till 12pm this afternoon. Coolness alright. Without a single shitxzo bugging me to get outta my bed & get myself clean up,y'know. It's ( shiockness + freedomxz ) cause mainly,no one is home now! :)

I'm dead tired & bored. My freaking hell stomach is still having weird feelings & also,my head is abit giddy & having a lil' headache. Shitxzo. :(

Baby's having his lessons in school today,like other normal days just that he don't hafta wake up so early to attend school,that's better i think. :) I miss him a hell lots alright. :(

Oh yes! I watch the news yesterday at channel U. You know what? I saw those rescue-ers,carrying out a small lil' girl, out from the topple buildings,and that lil' girl's facial expression was still there,& she's all stiff & harden already. What the hell right? This is all so saddening. :(

Aghh,i needa go back to sleep again. I don't feel quite right up there & my stomach's too. :(

So,bye peepoayes. :)

Was i being too navie? I guess so.

While waiting for baby to call me,i shall crap abit here. 8)
I'm so dead bored/tired/sleepy. :/

I'm so sad. :( I don't know what to say suddenly,my mind went blank outta sudden :/
Whatever. Shall end here.

Bye. :/

Nothing is forever lasting.
Even friendship can sometimes be disgusted as a 'illusionary' lasting one.
Now i realise,i was the one being the navie thinking one..it was all one way.
It was never a two way one. Ha,how could it all turn out to be?

I guess it's time for new friends to come in & join my life. & its really true to a saying that goes like this : ' Nothing could last forever like you thought,it'd all be a come-and-go thing. It'd soon be over. True friends & close friends develope from your upper sec life,even those crazy things you all could ever do,it'd all be left with memories.' I've gotta move on with life. There isn't only one friend. :)

I'm insocialable,how? HA.
True friends needn't you to go search for.
It'd come naturally.

I'm conscience clear & glad that i've done so much for 'em.
It's time to let go of that old & navie thinking. I've gotta move on with life.
Nothing could lemme stuck & not move on with life.

You'll will still be my friends. But i'm really sad to say. It's not like how we use to be anymore.

People never appreciate what i've done so much for'em.

Well,got my job quitted. I'm dead tired & i'm having diarrhoea since this early morning about 6 plus in the morning. Such un earthly hour isn't it? :( I'm still having diarrhoea now & then,hope that my diarrhoea will go off soon. I hate to drag my feet into the toilet & squat there till i fall asleep & that shitxzo still have yet to come out from my anus please. >:#

I'm so dead tired.

Went to bugis today with mummy,which i was thinking that my diarrhoea had gone 'away'. No,it hasn't. Suppose to ask mummy to buy things for me over at bugis,however i'm not in the mood to walk & look for the things i wanted. Fine,went back home. Slept through out the journey back home in the cabby.

I look fucking pale when baby came to visit me. :( My mouth was white in colour. How saddening can it be? Tsk,why am i this weak uh? Tsk tsk tsk! >:( Nevermind,i've quitted anyway. Shall work at home & earn "kaching kachings". :) Mummy hire me to do housework for her. Super flexible time. :) Can sleep till as late as i want siol. :DD

Alright,i shall end my craps here.
I wanna my "kaching kachings" asap. I wanna go shopping y'know! :(
(Insert ultra many sad faces. )

Say Bye to Ichibantei! :DD
Say Hi to Houseworks. :(

Alright,i shall cut the crap & end this B-o-r-i-n-g-g-g-g-g-g-g-g-g post here.
Byebye peepoayes. :)

In life,i'm born to help,but soon i became a nosy parker.
I help peepoayes around me,when i never got anything in return & i never wish for.
However,when you helped them out,they thank you whole heartedly.
But soon,they left your 'help' you once gave them at the back of their mind.

New friends came in,old friends thrown.
Was that the theory i ever wanted? No.
I help,yet i became someone,they never wanna repay kindness to.
I help,yet i became someone easily forgotten.

You forgotten all so..
Was this friendship gonna go down to drain like this?
We ain't like how we used to be,you don't know how much i treasure the friendship.
All the things we've done,you forgotten it all,so.
I'm living life with despair.
I'm not how i once used to be.
I'm dread,me.

You understand? Ha,no you don't.

How i wish someone could understand & read my mind.
Could you understand.... ?

I'm bastard's bitch. (8

Thursday,22nd May.

Well,worked. Tired,worn out. Reached home at 12am. Freak right? My stomach hurts that day,cause i stuff too much food. My bad right? Shitxzo me please. Duhhhh. Went home,slept. Skipped school quite alot of times this week.

Friday,23rd May.

Today i din't go to school,again. :)

Alright,back from Wild wild wet (WWW).
Alright,it's plain shiockness pleaseeeeeeeeeee,don't say i'm 'mountain tortise' ,cause i know i'm one. It's not my fault for being my first time there at WWW okay! Like please,i don't have the time alright!

Went to wild wild wet today with Dawnknee,Junli,Sihua. (: Love them alright. Went to wild wild wet to so called celebrate Junli's birthday in advance. Well,it's really fun to play that Family float & the U-shaped thingy. Forgotten what they name it as already,so-ya. Whatever alright. As long as my readers know what i mean. If you don't know,then go around asking. :)

Went to Shiock pool to slack. & then went to playground & play. Image spoiled. Hair is damn messy alright. HAHA! Whatever,it'd be so...

Oh ya,while we're on our way to Pasir ris from Boonlay. We saw this aunty that freak everyone out like,T-O-T-A-L-L-Y. But sadly,we din't video it down,if not you'd know how scary that aunty is alreay. >:(

You know what? She's about insane as what we guess from her actions. It's because,she hurried down the train & she push this girl's bag & she look kind of depressed. I guess she has some illness or she could have seen 'some things'? Okay,speaking of it,makes my gooseberry stand,cause it's freaking hell errie alright. Ewwwwww! :(

Oh well,brought Junli Happyhouse Pencil box,it's pretty cute & cool. Have yet to seen anyone using it. So yeah,shiockness. :) That Pig there is cute & those heart shapes are nice & cute tooo! :D

After playing over at wild wild wet,we decided to leave the place & went to bath & changed. Off to buy that very very yummylicious waffle. It's really nice,miss those chalet times,ass! 8) Afterwhich,we headed to interchange & then trained home,all of us was wear out & we slept in the train. Doze off after we board the train. After 1 hour plus & we headed to Kfc at central & meet up with baby. Then here comes Junli & sihua after awhile. Soon,i & baby left,due to...i-needa-go-home-asap-because-mother-says-she-wants-to-go-out. Duh,sad cannot accompany baby. :(

Alright,i shall go off already.

He's my greatest sin.

Alright,i'm back home. It's like so-finally. (Insert Relief face.)

I woke up damn early this morning,it's sucha unearthly hour. Not good.
My pimples are popping out like once again. Shitxzo okay. >:[
I hate pimples,it sucks a hell damn lot okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :(

Well,i woke up at 7.30am in the morning. Skipped school.
(Ps: I'm sorry sihua,i din't sms you earlier. I overslept. -.-!)
Momma overslept & she cycle Weilun to school. That arsehole. >:)
He's sucha ass okay! >:) (Insert evil laughters.)

Well,i've to go work later on @ 6. I gotta get out of house at 4,cause i'm meeting Bii at 4.
Meeting Sophia @ 4.30pm. Holy,i hope she won't be late. She's always late for any case okay! Ha! I hope we'd get that $5.30. Hope that today's training will turns out well. I hope soo. :)

Alright,i'm bored now. Life is getting abit boring for me.
I'm looking for something thrilling. If you've any to recommend,please do inform me okay!
I love thrilling & exciting activities. I'm willing to participate if there's any but most importantly,it must be fun. :)

Alright,i shall end my crap here.
BYE! :)