F,

Could what i believe true enough for me to actually believe?

2008-05-30T21:09:00.002+08:00

Alright,back home. Went out with baby today,to...Orchard & Bugis.
One word to describe,my leg is damn damn tired. :( Anyone,buy me a iSqueeze. LOL.

Well,suppose to get what i want. However,when i reached Bugis,i seems to be just strolling & walking passby the shops,each and everyone of them. Looking at them,wondering what i wanna get. LOL! Ended up,i gotten nothing. :( Again okay. :(

Perhaps i go on my own next time,yeah..

Well,before going to Bugis,we went to Wisma. Ate ice-cream,yummylicious. (: & then Baby headed to Flesh Imp. He brought two tee shirts at $39. (: He gotten his,i've yet to got mine. :(

Afterwhich,suppose to head back to Orchard to help my momma to get the Camera,however. Due to my laziness,i din't. :( Trained back to Jurong instead then suppose to go back home,then decided to go to Baby's house to play with his brother. HAHA. They showed me their baby photos,those pictures are really cute. Esp Long Long(Baby's bro.) HAHAHA,it's seriously cute pleaseeeee. HAHA.

Aftermath,i headed home...

HOME SWEET HOME. (:

Even if.

2008-05-29T20:28:00.002+08:00

I've typed alot,but i backspaced alot too. Nothing to post,i'm just dead bored. Life is getting a bit offtracks. I'm just hoping for better tomorrow. (: Bye.

All, it could be all over.

2008-05-29T15:02:00.005+08:00

"I realise, he's everything you wanted. He's the most you cared about. You ps-ed your friend just because of him. I guess you only needed him. well, that's fine with me. cause i no longer cares. & the reason why i hated him so much, is because, ever since he stepped into your life, you've changed drastically. Since he's the first thing in your mind, so be it. I've got no comments & i wouldnt bother stuff like this anymore. I've grown up, i'm independent."
Adapted from (you know who.)

You said you're a grown up girl,you said you're able to live on your own. Yes,indeed you said all this. But you don't know how much i felt behind all the scence. You don't realise a single shitxzo. You told me to be with him,then you said you dislike him,then you said you don't wish to bother anymore. Tell me,what is all this? Bullshitxz?

Why everyone is that same pattern? Why can't you all understand? Why do you girls hafta use that so nasty word 'ps'? Is that the only word to describe? Is it so? Is it? Why you couldn't you all just understand? You,you should understand more,but infact,i realise you don't. Is ps that word really that nice to you? Did i ever ever once used that word on you,anyone of you? Did i? Or maybe i did,& could have forgotten. But in my memory space,i remember i don't. But you girls? Use that word as & when you like it. Can't you all just be more mature & stop using the word 'ps' ? It sound like a total kiddish.

Forget it,carry on...

Everytime i could stand by you,i lend you my shoulder to cry on,i did all my best for the bestest friend,we once said nothing could do us apart. Have you even forgotten it all,so? It's just less than a few months,you said i change. I knew i change,who told me to treasure him,him,him? Who told me not to gave up? Who,who,who?

I din't know that once she stepped into your life,you too,changed. I stop myself from blaming her & you,cause i knew it's all my fault. I'm trying to aviod you & you. I knew you'd be reading all this. I knew,but i don't care. I just wanna post out how i feel.

When i'm really down,where were you? Yes you're once being there with me when i was really down,really facing the down slopes of life,you're there for me,i knew it all. I see it as a gift from heaven,at least someone i could confide on. But it's no longer this way. No longer how we used to be.

From the us,we could chat almost anything,everything. Till the us,we couldn't even have a proper talk. Somehow a talk could lead to a quarrel so something. I'd rather we don't talk or even interact.

Tell me,is this what you so call nothing could do us apart? & we even hooked our fingers,saying that not even a single guy could do so? Din't you? I think you forgotten that night,i bet you really did. All you think of is not about 'Felicia' anymore,is about '____' . Ain't you? But did i even wanna mention this to you? Thanks god for those hints,you did catch the lil' tweeny weeny bits of hints. No,not just lil' bits,but alot infact.

That past,i hated him to the maximum,did i even quarrel with you over him? Did i still not listen to you & try my way out to 'accpect' him? Din't i? Din't i!

Just a one paragraph,you push all the faults to me,what do you think all this is? You treat this like a kindergarden 'Friends Game' ? I can tell you,i don't treat it this way.

You're once my bestest friend,my bestest confide,bestest listening ears. But i could say,it's all so yesterday,you never wanna become one anymore & never will be there for me anymore cause you had your new confide,new lisetening ears,new pair of shoulders. I'm worn out,dirty & thrown aside.

Is this just the end? It's not just me alone to decide.

Is the a Friendship Game for you & me? I thought this won't come to an end,but somehow i knew,it's all ending soon. It's all no longer like before.

You said you realise? But infact you don't. You don't know a single shitxzo. You just knew 'my faults x 1000'. I knew,yes i knew the very best of you & i helped you when almost everyone turns their back on you.

It all gets better in time.

2008-05-28T21:58:00.002+08:00

Well,i just got home..not quite long ago (Roll eyes upwards and think real hard) Ya,i guess so. HA. It's all so randomxzo. :DD I feel like eating Fries again,shitxzo okay,in the way i'm eating & eating,i'm no way gonna get my fats burn off okay! >:( Fancy there's still people saying i look like a bamboo when i don't even look like one >:( Are all this 'suan-ing' or complimenting? :(

Oh well,meet up with baby today & pei him for 3 hours straight. >:D Heh heh,i'm always with him & i'm very happy that i'm. :D I skipped guitar today,& today's my last lesson. Baby,very big scarifice hor! >:DD Heh heh,for you only neh. :D

Nin neh,i wanna eat fries lehh. >:(

Okay,eat dinner with baby & went off to playground & slack. That play ground is clean and cool,can consider going there again next time. Big somemore lehhs! & it's really windy when it comes to the night time. :DD

Going to bugis this friday with baby accompanying me. :D I lurbbbexz Babyxzxz! :DD I'm going for a shopping. Momma sponser lehxz,why not! Ha. Maybe going to singapore expo tomorrow because there's a Popular fair there,going there to buy assesment books to do during school holiday. Momma don't wanna me to go work,so i don't go lor. Take it as i accompany my momma & i can help her do house work. :) Lemme be mummy's lil' girl. :DDDD

Alright,i needa go already. Takecare peepoayes. <3

It feels so free & better off without ______. Or am i just deciving myself?

Popped a sweet. 8)

2008-05-28T13:35:00.002+08:00

Alright,i'm going out now with momma. :D
Ask her buy clothes & stuffs for me,hooray! (Insert Big Fat Smile)
I'm happy happy happy. :D

Alright,gonna rain soon.
Takecare peepoayes! Remember to bring a brolly out! :D

*Pooofff*
Bye.

I've popped a sweet in my heart,i seems so sweet now.. :D

It'd be too late to turn back time.

2008-05-27T19:27:00.002+08:00

Well,i'm having some kind of gastric problem again i guess? Cause i don't know why,i keep wanting to vomit alot. :( I ate,i wanna vomit. No,not like what you thing that sort of stuffs okay. It's not P_______. -.- Definitely it's not,duhhh.

First was diarrhoea,secondly was bad headache that make me sleep the whole entire day today. Freaking hell stupid please. I feel so tired now,& i still feel like sleeping. :X Now,here comes the gastric problem. What-the-hell please. :(

Rawr,i don't wanna say anymore. My eyes hurts,i wanna go to my bed & lie down now,my gastric don't kind of feel well. :(

Bye.

If letting go could be the best resort.

2008-05-27T13:01:00.003+08:00

Alright,i sleep till 12pm this afternoon. Coolness alright. Without a single shitxzo bugging me to get outta my bed & get myself clean up,y'know. It's ( shiockness + freedomxz ) cause mainly,no one is home now! :)

I'm dead tired & bored. My freaking hell stomach is still having weird feelings & also,my head is abit giddy & having a lil' headache. Shitxzo. :(

Baby's having his lessons in school today,like other normal days just that he don't hafta wake up so early to attend school,that's better i think. :) I miss him a hell lots alright. :(

Oh yes! I watch the news yesterday at channel U. You know what? I saw those rescue-ers,carrying out a small lil' girl, out from the topple buildings,and that lil' girl's facial expression was still there,& she's all stiff & harden already. What the hell right? This is all so saddening. :(

Aghh,i needa go back to sleep again. I don't feel quite right up there & my stomach's too. :(

So,bye peepoayes. :)

Was i being too navie? I guess so.

2008-05-26T22:40:00.003+08:00

While waiting for baby to call me,i shall crap abit here. 8)
I'm so dead bored/tired/sleepy. :/

I'm so sad. :( I don't know what to say suddenly,my mind went blank outta sudden :/
Whatever. Shall end here.

Bye. :/

Nothing is forever lasting.
Even friendship can sometimes be disgusted as a 'illusionary' lasting one.
Now i realise,i was the one being the navie thinking one..it was all one way.
It was never a two way one. Ha,how could it all turn out to be?

I guess it's time for new friends to come in & join my life. & its really true to a saying that goes like this : ' Nothing could last forever like you thought,it'd all be a come-and-go thing. It'd soon be over. True friends & close friends develope from your upper sec life,even those crazy things you all could ever do,it'd all be left with memories.' I've gotta move on with life. There isn't only one friend. :)

I'm insocialable,how? HA.
True friends needn't you to go search for.
It'd come naturally.

I'm conscience clear & glad that i've done so much for 'em.
It's time to let go of that old & navie thinking. I've gotta move on with life.
Nothing could lemme stuck & not move on with life.

You'll will still be my friends. But i'm really sad to say. It's not like how we use to be anymore.

People never appreciate what i've done so much for'em.

2008-05-26T21:21:00.006+08:00

Well,got my job quitted. I'm dead tired & i'm having diarrhoea since this early morning about 6 plus in the morning. Such un earthly hour isn't it? :( I'm still having diarrhoea now & then,hope that my diarrhoea will go off soon. I hate to drag my feet into the toilet & squat there till i fall asleep & that shitxzo still have yet to come out from my anus please. >:#

I'm so dead tired.

Went to bugis today with mummy,which i was thinking that my diarrhoea had gone 'away'. No,it hasn't. Suppose to ask mummy to buy things for me over at bugis,however i'm not in the mood to walk & look for the things i wanted. Fine,went back home. Slept through out the journey back home in the cabby.

I look fucking pale when baby came to visit me. :( My mouth was white in colour. How saddening can it be? Tsk,why am i this weak uh? Tsk tsk tsk! >:( Nevermind,i've quitted anyway. Shall work at home & earn "kaching kachings". :) Mummy hire me to do housework for her. Super flexible time. :) Can sleep till as late as i want siol. :DD

Alright,i shall end my craps here.
I wanna my "kaching kachings" asap. I wanna go shopping y'know! :(
(Insert ultra many sad faces. )

Say Bye to Ichibantei! :DD
Say Hi to Houseworks. :(

Alright,i shall cut the crap & end this B-o-r-i-n-g-g-g-g-g-g-g-g-g post here.
Byebye peepoayes. :)

In life,i'm born to help,but soon i became a nosy parker.
I help peepoayes around me,when i never got anything in return & i never wish for.
However,when you helped them out,they thank you whole heartedly.
But soon,they left your 'help' you once gave them at the back of their mind.

New friends came in,old friends thrown.
Was that the theory i ever wanted? No.
I help,yet i became someone,they never wanna repay kindness to.
I help,yet i became someone easily forgotten.

You forgotten all so..
Was this friendship gonna go down to drain like this?
We ain't like how we used to be,you don't know how much i treasure the friendship.
All the things we've done,you forgotten it all,so.
I'm living life with despair.
I'm not how i once used to be.
I'm dread,me.

You understand? Ha,no you don't.

How i wish someone could understand & read my mind.
Could you understand.... ?

I'm bastard's bitch. (8

2008-05-23T22:37:00.002+08:00

Thursday,22nd May.

Well,worked. Tired,worn out. Reached home at 12am. Freak right? My stomach hurts that day,cause i stuff too much food. My bad right? Shitxzo me please. Duhhhh. Went home,slept. Skipped school quite alot of times this week.

Friday,23rd May.

Today i din't go to school,again. :)

Alright,back from Wild wild wet (WWW).
Alright,it's plain shiockness pleaseeeeeeeeeee,don't say i'm 'mountain tortise' ,cause i know i'm one. It's not my fault for being my first time there at WWW okay! Like please,i don't have the time alright!

Went to wild wild wet today with Dawnknee,Junli,Sihua. (: Love them alright. Went to wild wild wet to so called celebrate Junli's birthday in advance. Well,it's really fun to play that Family float & the U-shaped thingy. Forgotten what they name it as already,so-ya. Whatever alright. As long as my readers know what i mean. If you don't know,then go around asking. :)

Went to Shiock pool to slack. & then went to playground & play. Image spoiled. Hair is damn messy alright. HAHA! Whatever,it'd be so...

Oh ya,while we're on our way to Pasir ris from Boonlay. We saw this aunty that freak everyone out like,T-O-T-A-L-L-Y. But sadly,we din't video it down,if not you'd know how scary that aunty is alreay. >:(

You know what? She's about insane as what we guess from her actions. It's because,she hurried down the train & she push this girl's bag & she look kind of depressed. I guess she has some illness or she could have seen 'some things'? Okay,speaking of it,makes my gooseberry stand,cause it's freaking hell errie alright. Ewwwwww! :(

Oh well,brought Junli Happyhouse Pencil box,it's pretty cute & cool. Have yet to seen anyone using it. So yeah,shiockness. :) That Pig there is cute & those heart shapes are nice & cute tooo! :D

After playing over at wild wild wet,we decided to leave the place & went to bath & changed. Off to buy that very very yummylicious waffle. It's really nice,miss those chalet times,ass! 8) Afterwhich,we headed to interchange & then trained home,all of us was wear out & we slept in the train. Doze off after we board the train. After 1 hour plus & we headed to Kfc at central & meet up with baby. Then here comes Junli & sihua after awhile. Soon,i & baby left,due to...i-needa-go-home-asap-because-mother-says-she-wants-to-go-out. Duh,sad cannot accompany baby. :(

Alright,i shall go off already.

He's my greatest sin.

2008-05-22T14:43:00.002+08:00

Alright,i'm back home. It's like so-finally. (Insert Relief face.)

I woke up damn early this morning,it's sucha unearthly hour. Not good.
My pimples are popping out like once again. Shitxzo okay. >:[
I hate pimples,it sucks a hell damn lot okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :(

Well,i woke up at 7.30am in the morning. Skipped school.
(Ps: I'm sorry sihua,i din't sms you earlier. I overslept. -.-!)
Momma overslept & she cycle Weilun to school. That arsehole. >:)
He's sucha ass okay! >:) (Insert evil laughters.)

Well,i've to go work later on @ 6. I gotta get out of house at 4,cause i'm meeting Bii at 4.
Meeting Sophia @ 4.30pm. Holy,i hope she won't be late. She's always late for any case okay! Ha! I hope we'd get that $5.30. Hope that today's training will turns out well. I hope soo. :)

Alright,i'm bored now. Life is getting abit boring for me.
I'm looking for something thrilling. If you've any to recommend,please do inform me okay!
I love thrilling & exciting activities. I'm willing to participate if there's any but most importantly,it must be fun. :)

Alright,i shall end my crap here.
BYE! :)

I'm Bitchxzo. (:

2008-05-21T21:24:00.003+08:00

Haha,i'm Bitchxzo,agree? :D

Alright,i'm haywired up there,ignore me alright. Hahahaha! :D
I don't know why i'm kindda high & happy today. Hahahaha. :D
Baby went to Gek Poh to fetch me after my Guitar lesson today.
Love him plenty ogay. :D

Alright,i don't know what to post already.
Have to work tomorrow. :(

Wait,before i go off.
I wanna say. I start to treasure my lil' sissy more.
She'll soon be my one & only kin in the world when i grows up.
She'll only rely on me,cause by the time,i guess my parents won't be around already.
I needa help her pay her school fees & everything.
She'll only be my only left kin. The closest kin.
I really start loving her alot.

As the day i read the newspaper about the sichuan 7.8 magnitude earthquake.
Many childrens were dead unknowingly,innocently in that earthquake.
Many babies were dead too.
I'm really glad that my lil' sissy born out into my family.
In to Singapore; Safe & free from earthquake.
I'm really glad. I wanna the best for my lil' sissy.
I Promise,when i grow up.
I'll give her the best of everything.
I'll treat her well,definitely i will. :)

I love my lil' sissy,Fyn Toh Pei Xuan.

From the incident that happen in Sichuan,i start to treasure my kinship alot. I love FynToh. :)

[Edit]
Go read this. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Josef_Fritzl
After reading,i bet you'd start swearing & cursing lo. What the fuck.
That pervert. Sex Manic. Shitxzo him please!

Oh ya,i wanna go popular buy that story book.
I forgotten that tittle. It's interesting please..
I'm desparate for that book okay! :D

Wildness.

2008-05-21T14:46:00.002+08:00

Alright,i don't know why i put that header as my Title. Haha.
I totally forgotten that i had to attend a course over at Bukit Batok ITE today.
It totally slips off my mind do you acutally know that? Sucks alright.

Reaching there,it's plain boring,watching those people doing nothing,slacking around.
It's uber boring listening to the talk for the What ever robotics they name it.
Sucks till one kind please. Duhhh. (Insert kukued look)

Eugune & Haorong had some trival matter tiff & it links me up too.
Like hello,has it got something to do with me? No,i don't think so.
It's simply shitxz i tell you. Whatever. -.-
Don't wanna elaborate too much,it's plain irritating & a waste of my time too. Duh.

Went back to school by transport & reaching there at 1.15 - 1.20pm.
Hurried & quicken up my pace & headed to the back gate,just nice. Bus 30 arrived. :)
Broarded & went back home. :)

Happy that i reached home so early.
Don't like to interact nowadays,boring. -.-

Alright,i needa go off now,tired.
(Insert tired face.)

Hired! :)

2008-05-20T21:27:00.003+08:00

Alright,hired! :D Happy okays,start working tomorrow,yeah.
Must must must reach there before 4.45 pm. Thus,meet up with twinny at 3pm. Hopefully we won't be late,cause Ivy(floor manager) will be very unhappy. Yada. :)

Jiayous for me & twinny then. :)

Well,meet up with baby after which. Went to buy his Layout pad at popular. Hur.
Loves max. :)

Alright,i don't know what to post anymore.
I just know,i needa Black jeans & Black shoes desparately. Awww. :(

[edit]

Oh ya,by the way,i suddenly feel like saying. I hate backstabbers a hell lots & i friggin' hate nosy parkers. It'd irritates me alot,y'know! Tsk, & you know what?! I hate people who gossip behind me,alot. This sucks like totally..

I've no idea why i wanna blog this out,but i just feel like to.

I friggin' hell hate it,alot. Yes alot,fuck y'know. :(

Alright,nothing more. Bye.
[/edit]

Job interview later.

2008-05-20T13:09:00.004+08:00

Alright,will be going for a job interview later with Twinny. Yada.
Alright,i hope they'll hire me luhhs,i wanna moolah alot. :(

Waiting for twinny,she's always late uh. HURHUR.
I hope to get cracking earlier. Cause,i can go shopping earlier then! :D

I've yet to eat anything frmo morning till now. Gonna go eat later.
Went to Dental Appointment earlier this morning,was late. Hur.
& good news! I'm able to take out my braces end of this year!
Cool okay! I'm happy happy happy! :D

& i changed the braces colour to Yellow colour already,Hurhur!
Happy happy happy okay! :DDDD

Alright,come back to post later,BYE! :D

Enjoyed. :)

2008-05-19T22:01:00.002+08:00

Helloooos peepos. :)

Went to East coast as i posted earlier on this afternoon. I went there with Jun,her stead & Beloved Bi. :) I love the outing tons alright. I guess my parents like Bi too? Cause they look so friendly to him. Hur hur. :D

Alright,reach there at about 3 plus? Not too sure. Once we reached there,we started playing volleyball. Bi played with lil' sissy & Kuanhoe stood there & did nothing. Simply stonning away,HA! :D

After about 1/2 an hr later,we went to rent bicycle. However,due to my stupid-ness & Blur-ness,i thought it's further down the road & thus,much time is being delayed. Thus we reached that place at only 5.30pm & cycled till 6.15pm. Alright,then we walked to the Market which is near the lagoon. Hurhur. >:)

After which we took cabby back to Jurong point. Reached there & then Bi & i went off home. He brought his phone cover & screen protector. Haha! :D Nice nice. Goodness,my screen has got another extra scretches. Oh-My-God! :(

Reached home & then bathed. Talking with my Fivesomez now. :D Alright,bye! :DDD

I love Bi much. :)

Family day @ east coast park. :}

2008-05-19T12:40:00.001+08:00

Alright,i'm going out soon to meet up with my Bi & then we're going to head to Jurong east to meet up with junli & her stead. After which,we're going to head down to Bedok & take bus ride into East coast park. Yada.

Family went over to east coast park first & i'm still here.
Cause i wanna meet up with Baby & then to meet up with co.
If not,i'd be sucha bad friend & stead to. Hurhur.

I hope i'd love the day out with them. I bet it'd be fun! :D
I love Baby tons & co tons to. :}

Alright,gonna fly off to find baby already.

Gonna play volleyball later on! Hurhur! I love volleyball! :D Woosh.

Keep bleeding love,

2008-05-18T23:17:00.002+08:00

Vesak Day tomorrow & therefore,there isn't a need to attend school,public holiday is shiockness alright. I'm always looking super forward to school holidays & public holidays,cause that means i could have sleep longer in that cosy bed of mine,y'know? HA. :)

Alright,put a Rainbow sign infront of you nick,to help the people in china. Put it,no harm putting it yeah? Be good & put it,it shows that you've a heart. :)

Went to have my dinner with my family over at Vivo city. After the dinner,shop around while my sister went to the playground to play & father over there,watching over her.

Shop around,din't buy anything. Mum is waiting for the Great Singapore Sales which will be on next week & she'll be buying undergarments for me & as well as shoes? I ain't too sure,hope so. It's been so long since mummy get anything from me already. Yes,very very long already. Couple of months ago. :(

When we're about to go home,dad called mum up & he says that lil' sissy got herself bang on to the door of the shop,name MANGO. Mummy rush back to see if lil' sissy is alright & we saw her mouth swollen abit,at the top of her lips. How sad. She's sobbing in tears & blood around her face & mouth,heart starts to ache.

I don't know why i got so soft-hearted this easily for this few days. I cry very easily too,i somehow thinks that i'm getting more & more fragile,might crush anytime. :O!

Well,i'm dead bored now. Know what? I'm alway bored,did you notice that? Oh well,i shall end here,i guess this is the don't know how many post for the day itself. Cool uhrs. :D

I just wanted you to understand me more.
I just needed you to know what i'm down,thinking about.
I'm shutting myself outta the world,slowly.
I'm shutting myself outta everyone else.
I can't see the me i'm,who used to be.
I'm getting more & more unable to express myself fully.
I don't know what has gotten over me.
I cry very easily recently,in the middle of the night after hanging up the phone.

I really needa your true concern.
The concern i'm always desparate for.
The love i always craved for.
The need i always wanted.
The you,i always missed.

I don't wanna my post to sound so dull,always.
Always having emo nemo post makes me get so sick & tired of it.
How i wish you could understand me more,like how i always used to understand you.
But i'm always kind of lying to myself. Hoping that the next day might be a better day for me.
It may be true,sometime. But not most of the time.
I'm starting to hate the world i'm in.
How i wish i'm not in this world.
How i wish i could have something to numb myself.
I'm shitxzo bitchzo.

Bye.

Could everything be as what i always want it to be?

2008-05-18T17:04:00.003+08:00

Alright,the weather is really bad. Stuffy & hot too. Hardly it's windy. Whatever,duh. -.-

Well,i hope to work as soon as possible,gonna call up sophia later on in the night time. Ask her when will the interview be. Hopefully soon. I wish to work as soon as possible. I wanna earn moolah you know. Moolah Moolah. :}

Alight,know what? I've finished the mini toon's sweet Bi brought for me. Oh,i bet i'm gonna grow fatter,soon. HA! :( Oh,no no. I won't let it grow sideways,i'll let it grow upwards,instead. Hur. :D I wanna go out with Fivesomez & i wanna go out with Bi. I miss him a fug'hell lots,alright. Whatever,duh. I don't feel good today & also yesterday. It seems to be like,there's a very huge stone,laying flat on my heart. I'm so-unable-to-breath. :(

I'm sad,yes i'm.

Well,i'm going off to bath already alright. Hope to receive news about jobby soon. I wanna work,work work. :(

Bye.

As if.

2008-05-18T11:31:00.003+08:00

Morning Guys. Alright,i guess it's a rather late Greeting,oh well. :)

Alright,i'm going to Bedok to have my prayers & pay my visit to my uncle too. :) It's been 123456789xz years since i last visit him.

Oh well,Baby gotten the same phone as me,but is in white colour. Jealous alright. White & gold coating at the side of the phone,it's damn nice please. Goodness. :( Oh well,he's so damn happy as you can see from his blog. LOL! His first time in his life,changing into a new phone y'know. LOL! Can't blame anyway. :)

Oh anyway,he changed his number too.

& yes,i'm having my dental appointment this coming tuesday. Shag,i hope that my cousin will follow me there. Oh by the way,i'm finishing Abandoned by Anya Peters soon. I'm left with 3 chapters to go. HA! After finishing Abandoned By Anya Peters,i'll be continuing with I'd tell you i love you,but i'd have to kill you. Yes,so into reading story books nowadays.

Alright,i'm going off now.
Ps,I'm wearing your NF shorts now,LOL!

I din't know,i'm sucha fool to ask that.
Knewing that i'll make myself sad,yet i still tried to ask.
Everything could be fine if i din't even prompt that,isn't it?
I don't like it,the feeling deep down sucks.
You won't know,& don't ever say you'll know.
Unless you gone through what i gone through before.

Making myself like a fool,is what i always do.
I felt so ashame of myself. Bitchz.

2008-05-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

Felt so much deep down.
I felt so much like crying out loud.
You never will know,never.
It's gonna be like this forever.

I'm at the second part of the world.
Holding on to the second tears of the heart.
Being the second in the every way i'm.
I somehow knew. I'm the happiest,yet the lonliest.

Don't ask me what is it about,just something it's about.
Don't ask me what is it. Cause i'm not going to say a single shitxzo.
I'm not someone so easy to know,cause i'm someone not going to,for you to know.

Bye.

2008-05-17T22:10:00.002+08:00

Alright,i'm back to post.
Went out with baby just now.
Went to IMM with him,& then into Daiso.
'Brought' two lil' metal balls for baby's D&T stuffs.

Baby & i had promised each other.
I'd work hard & study hard. & he's gonna work hard too.
This is the first 'yue ding' we've to complete too. Yes,it's a must.

Alright,i shall no post that much already,i'm going off to eat.
Bye bye. :)

Sichuan's earthquake make me realise that i'm fortunate enough.
I really hope they'd find more survivors. God Bless.

Earthquake. Heart-felt. :(

2008-05-17T11:15:00.003+08:00

Sichuan 7.8 magnitude earthquake on the 12th May.
I read the newspaper early this morning. Reading those heart-felt stories.
Listening to my mother explaning the details to me. Telling how much they're suffering there.
How much the have to do to themselves to get themselves,just to live on.
They've to get their own right leg cut off from the underneath stones,if not,they'd die off.
How much i felt when i read those articles. How much i feel like crying.

Alright,post later. :(

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Alright,back to post.
I just went to youtube to watch those videos,it seems like something struck my head. Like something in my head,asking me to do something for them. Watching them underneath the toppled buildings,& some crying for help. I can't help but when i watch those videos with my mother,my tears rolled down my cheek somehow.

I suddenly felt like i was the happiest & most fortunate girl in the whole entire world. Living in a very peaceful place,Singapore. Without those earthquakes,or hardship we've to go through. I felt so fortunate outta sudden.

Watching videos of the people over there,underneath the stones & blocks of humongous stones,make me felt that pinch down every inch of my heart. So bitter. Those children turn into orphanges over the night. Living in despair,nothing in the world seems to look bright to them. Some without legs,without hands,but to just let themselves live on,they've to scarifice their arms or legs.

If you're the ones there,or you're the one reading those articles,watching those videos & news. I'd bet you can't help but to let your tears rolled down. You won't unless you're that heartless. I bet my friends are not sorta.

May god bless them,hoping for the best in them. Wish that there'll be more survivors found underneath.

How i wish i can help out to...

Alright,offta. Bye. :(

Results.

2008-05-16T13:57:00.003+08:00

Alright,results are all back,all at once.
Got so flabbergasted when i received my chinese results.
No,i din't fail,but i din't do as well as expected. I dissapointed myself.
I gotten the second position in class for chinese,i lose just by that freaking hell one mark.
I lost to vivien. If only i could done better in my Oral for chinese,that'd be great. I could still maintain my position in class already then. But sadly,i din't manage to. So,whatever. Forget it,do better for next time round then.

Overall,i passed all my subjects.
Yes,all. No doubts. But i doubt myself,Duh.
I fucking passed all,however. It's all a borderline passing.Do you know how freak it is ?Mathematics,i flunk badly for paper 2.I screw paper two up. Very badly done. I dissapoint not only myself,but also Ms Ng. Arghh,whatever. -.-

This is my results,a badly done one,despite passing all,yet i'm not happy at all :

English : 52% ;C6
Combine Humanities : 60%;B4
Mathematics : 54.5%;C5
Combine science : 58%;C5
Chinese : 69%;B3
Design & Tech : 50%;C6

Can i like bang my head hard on the wall & die off? Shitxz you know. The results are so shamful & i feel so ashame of myself. I din't do as well as expected. I find emp reasons to convince myself Like ,i did very well already,i had did my best & moreover,not to forget,i'm sick for the whole entire 1 week during exams. I did very well already. But no,it's getting nowhere into my head. It's more of like,i'm not putting in enough effort. I don't feel happy at all,not happy at all. I feel so ashame of myself.

I could have done better than this,much more than as expected,but no. People who are usually not studying are getting better grades than i do.

What a bitch am i. I can fuck off & die,seriously. :(

Okay,on the other hand. I improve in my science. Both physics & chemistry. Thanks god,i improved quite alot i must say. Gotta put in more hard work already,must! :) Alright,i shall stop self-demoralising already. Since everything is to be this way,then i shall look up to it & face it. It's reality that i've gotta face,accecpt the fact & do better for the next coming exams. :) Jiayous. :D

Oh yes,i'm at chapter 16 of Abandoned already. The book is really intersting,very. I almost cried y'know. That bastard 'daddy' of hers,made her to do blowjob for him. Please,do you know how disgusting it is? She's less than the age of seven just then. She's still struggling to know what is it all about that he kept telling her to do,she knew it was dirty,but she dare not defy his 'daddy' so afraid that anything she say might put him on an anger again & his fist laying on her face all over again.

I feel so sad when i read the book. She's a strong girl i must say. I pity her a lot & also i really look up on her a lot too. Her never die spirt makes me feel like she's like my role model.

Alright alright,maybe i'll be going to library with baby to do his Design & Technology & kumon's paper. & i'm now,going off to continue with my reading. Bye. :)

Am i one of those,or am i not?
i start to feel like i'm not in that _____ anymore.
I feel so much like leaving,storming out.
But i don't wish to speak a word.
I don't wanna feel the hurt.
I know ,i know i'm running away from reality.
But i can't afford to face up to the facts.
I'm weak,yes i'm. I'm not as strong as you think. Am not at all.
You're all so wrong. People who use to know me best don't seems to understand me any longer. People who use to be my very good friend don't seems to be as closer as before. People who 'used to be are' not 'used to be' , now. People says,every good things comes to an end,every good things has an end to it. When will mine end?

2008-05-15T22:27:00.002+08:00

Back from Library with baby.
Had great time with him,always i really do. :)

Oh,main point.
He gotten into a fight & i think it's that sec 3's fault. Yes,definitely it's his fault,who to blame? Him to blame. It's just a idiotic shitxz. Can't he just move his butt off the stairs? Does he really think that,the staircase really do belong to him? No,i don't think so. Oh,whatever. -.- He's just as unreasonable as a bastard. B is just B. Can't change the fact that he's a B.

He still have the cheek to pour his green tea at Jian xu when it's His fault. What the fuck please. So unreasonable. Oh,now i know,he's sucha unreasonable & petty bastard. Oh,how saddening. :) & he fucking hit my baby. He's better to die off. Have the cheek to scold,have the cheek to admit then. Have the cheek to pour & scold like a bastard,scold baby & jianxu infront of the teacher then. So what if a student like you don't have any records? That doesn't mean teachers have the right to judge a book by it's cover. What a cunning fox he's. Oh,bastard.

He's lucky that he bleed a little under baby's fist. I bet if he were to scold more,the more he'd bleed. What-the-fuck. Big size,broad shoulder,tall. So what,useless bastard. Only know how to scold verberlly,no actions. Just lil' small undeadly actions won't kill baby anyway. -.- Just one hit on you,you're so dead like an ants under my baby's lil' fuck shit finger.

You deserve it,bastard. Watch out for your ass,where you're landing on luh,bodoh dog. -.-

Alright,felt much happier after this post ,i feel like speaking up for baby,however,i don't know how to speak it verberlly,then too bad. Just type it out then,since i'm more to literally. Oh,whatever. HA! :D

Firstly,went to Jurong point's library. Then,headed to Jurong east library to look for Abandoned by Peters Anaya. Finally,i found it & thanks baby,for helping me to borrow that book. I'm gonna finish it as soon as possible. I will. :D

The first chapter only,it's already very intersting. Very. :)

Alright,having school tomorrow. Shitzxo. Getting back my results,am so panick stricken now. I'm afriad that the position i'm at,during CT1 & 2 won't maintain. I really hope i can get good results,but i know it my own,i din't put in enough hard work. No hard work means good results won't show. Sigh,also at the same time. Die.

Whatever,shall get my butt off the chair to help baby do his english homework & offta read Abandoned. :)

Goodnight earthlings.
Bye. :)

2008-05-15T14:29:00.002+08:00

Boring,baby hafta stay back in school for don't know what reasons being.
I'm bored here. Not going to library,cause he's not going with me.
Thus,i'm going to catch some nap again.

I'm always sleeping & sleeping & sleeping,oh whatever,duh.
I'm so lazy nowadays,the feeling of laziness is killing me. HA!

Alrigh alright,pig wants to sleep already. Goodafternoon people. :)

Bye! :D

2008-05-14T23:41:00.004+08:00

-Screams!-

Yes,i went out with Sihua,Junli & Dawn too. Oh my goodness,today is a very happy one,indeed. I very happy happy happy! :D I love the day out with them. - smirkles-

Oh,i'm so happy today.

Alright,i'm bored nowadays. Nothing much to do. Oh yes,by the way,we watch Over Her Dead Body @ cineleisure. It's a very nice show,a must watch Romance Comedy. Very nice,it's worth watching it,without regrets i tell you. For sure it'd be. :D Rating : 5/5 .

Alright,we went to cineleisure to shop around & then headed to The Hereen & then Mrt down to Bugis. & we look for jobs there. HA! The four of us found,& we're still waiting for the calls/smses. HA! Hopefully i'm able to get the job luhhs. -Money money money,continue chanting like idiot.-

Oh ya,by the way. Thanks baby,for the FBT shorts & the Newfuture shorts too. Thanks a plenty. I love the gifts very much,thank you alot alot. & also,thanks for that 520th Heart shape. I'll definitely put it inside the Bottle you gave me. :) I love you a plenty.

Alright,i shall post up tomorrow,a more detail version of what happen today ,alright? :DDD
Loves. :)

Goodnight,my dear earthlings. :)

[edit]

Alright,this post is edited. Cause as i promised,i'll post a more detail post today. Due to tiredness yesterday,i din't really elaborate what happen,HA.

So..now i'm here to blog out everything. :D Ready to go? Carry on reading alright. :D

Okay. Firstly,i had my design & technology paper early in the morning & half way thru the paper,it rain like cats & dogs. Was kindda cold,yet the breeze is cooling. :D However,the papers for both D&T and F&N really sucks a big time. It's totally a very difficult paper & i doubt i'll get high marks,oh whatever. -.-

13 of us skipped assembly early in the morning,mainly due to laziness & side kick reason is due to we-don't-know-that-today-have-assembly. Oh,so whatever,it's sucha lame excuse as everyone can see,HA. & then,here comes my Co-form teacher. Oh-no,dead-meat. Nah,not really. Not as we thought,that deadly. HA! It's rather cool instead. We sat outside the staff room,facing the walls,sitting in a straight row for 1hr. After our form teacher left,we sat there playing & listening to songs,despite the teachers,walking to & fore. HA! Not awhile later,it started raining cats & dogs again.

Soon,we're release for our detention. Headed home immediately. Thanks god that the backgate is open for us. Oh,thanks alot. HA! If not,i'd be so drenched. Holy! HAHA. & know what,headed back to Jp to buy what mummy asked me to buy & then bus-ed home alone. & when i reach home,i smell a strong scent of curry-ness. -smirkles.- It's really nice & after i had my bath,i immediately ate that curry. Oh,mom's cook is always that superb. I love it. :D

Alright,after which,i went off to meet up with junli at 2pm at the interchange. & she's late again,as expected,HA! Well,then we headed to Orchard. Kindda lost our way there. Rang sihua up & asked her how do we walk & such. Then headed back to Mrt station & took the train back to Summerset & went to cineleisure. Catch the 3.30 show for Over her dead body at Cineleisure.

That show is seriously cool,funny & it's so so so damn nice. It's definitely a must watch show,serious. Must watch it okay? I wanna watch it again! I wanna watch! >:@ Baby,i wanna watch again,you wanna watch with me? Hehehe. :D

Rating : 5/5.

After which,we went in to the arcade at cineleisure. It's so damn empty,not as noisy as i expected,thus i agree to go in. Played that Don't know what dancing game,that para para thingy,i guess? Not sure,i laugh like mad,feel like an idiot playing it. Keep laughing like hell. Oh my goodness,image spoiled. HA! :D well,i never cared about imgae sucha things anyway. HA. Or should i say,hardly do i cared about it. HA!

Headed to The Hereen afters,then we shopped around. Saw that addidas watch again! The yellow is damn nice,serious. My heart is pounding the minute i saw that watch. It seems to be telling me, buy-me-back,buy-me-back. HAHA! -crazy- But then,sadly,if only i had that much money,i will definitely buy it back. For sure. HA! Then,headed to Flesh Imp,the clothes that sells there are nice & the Price Tags are nicer. HA! The hoodies from there cost 69.00 SGD. Oh my goodness. But it's nice & i think it's worth it lor. Yes. HA!

Shopped around & we went to see the bags,sihua's phyco-ing me to buy bags with her,not again. HA! But yes,i agree-ed with her that i'm going to buy that Super Large bag with her already,so yeah. HA!

Trained back to Bugis & then We shopped around bugis village & also we look for jobs at there too. While shopping,we look for jobs to. I realise,the second floor sells more floral dress & such & more boyfriend shirts too. It's really nice,i feel like stealing it back home. HA! Navie thinking,i know. xD HAHAHA!

Suddenly,know what? I've got the feeling of trying out stealing. But i know is a bad thing to steal,so i needa drop that idea off my mind,asap. HA!

Afters,we went to Sony gallery to see if they are still selling the PSP,alone not. However,not anymore. They're selling it with games. So,i think it's not worth it? Yeah. So saddening.

Oh yes,by the way,i found a job,however,i needa wait for that person's sms/call. Yeah,next week. I hope to get her call like as soon as possible laas. I wanna start working as soon as possible,like you know. Money issues again. HA! :D

After that the four of us found a job each,however,we needa wait. Yes,wait then. :D

Headed back to Jurong Point,went to Junli house to have steamboat,my stomach freaking hell bloated. Oh goodness,damn damn full. Oh well. Had a fun time with them. Cabbed home with sihua. The uncle drive very fast & the cost is only 4.20SGD. Cool. HA! :D Then baby sent me home & then he went off.

He brought me a Newfuture shorts & also a Fbt shorts. I love it very much alright. Thanks a plenty baby. :) & yes,he finally gave me the 520th heartshape. Thanks,will put it inside the bottle soon. :D I love you baby! :D Plenty plenty. :D

Yes,thats about what took place yesterday.

Let me talk about today.

Woke up at 11.15am. Brush my teeth & then ate my breakfast & lunch too. Mom helped me to squeeze out all my pimples. Oh goodness,it's so painful. Goodness! :( But nevermind,as a girl,we must protect our face,HA! :D & then,i'm here blogging & waiting for baby.

I wanna go to Library,i wanna freaking hell dig that two books out y'know! >:@ Rawr. Freaks.

Alright alright,i shall shut my mout now,in case,you guys find me a nuisances. HA! :D
Bye! :D

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2008-05-14T13:09:00.002+08:00

-Throw pencilbox & scream!-

I've finally endure through the hardest 3 weeks of exams already! So finally,my exam has come to an end already. & i'll be enjoying myself for the next 1 month. Have to come thinking about it,it's seriously very fun you know! Oh,cool. -smirkles-

Oh,im going out soon,very soon. About 5 more minutes. I'm here,giving it a short post.

Well,am meeting junli @ 1.30 at Jurongpoing interchange,however,i knew she'd for sure to be late,so i rather go there late too. So that i needn't wait for her for so long,standing there,without entertainments,is boring. :(
We're going to Bugis to look for sihua,hopefully she've gone over to Bugis already.

& yes,i finished my Last paper,which is Design & Technology. No hope for it already,many says that they're gonna flunk it for sure. & me? I'm sure to flunk it too. Either fail,or i'll have marks like,just pass? Oh no,having to think about it,makes me feel like weeping. Oh well,shalln't brood over spilled milk,look forward to the next common test then,& work harder for it.

& Teacher says,she'll be calling us(D&T) students back to school during school holidays to complete our Course work & also,the product making. Shitxzo. -.- (Insert plenty sad faces.)

Tell you what,i'm going to work harder for the next half year. & also,i'll endure through the days without seeing baby that often,due to his coming up N level which is gonna arrive in no time & he's gonna get started with his works already & he's gonna have lesser time with me,& definitely it'd be. How saddening will it be? Sigh,nevermind. I'll be with him when he needs me. I'll be good & i will try not picking up quarrels with him alright,hopefully. :(

Alright,i'm gonna be late! Gotta run! -Phew,Gone!-

2008-05-13T11:19:00.003+08:00

I scored 42.5/60 for my Mathematics paper 1,oh goodness! I freaking hell flunk it can! I'm suppose to score much more better than this. It's sure to be better than this,but i din't even bother to study hard & now i'm here regretting like freak. Oh,whatever. Duh. -Roll eyes- & it's my Mathematics paper 2 today,it's damn difficult i tell you! For goodness sake,you know what,almost all the question i've got no confidence in,having them to be correct. Shitxzo. I need buck up more already!

Oh,btw. I told my mother my marks for my Mathematics paper 1,she's kindda glad,but after i told her,the paper is difficult,she gave me that shag face & say,"then die liaos lor." Then i laugh. Hahaha,crazy me,duh. -.-

Having my last paper tomorrow! Freak,i needa go school alone. So saddening please! :( Hais,going to cineleisure tomorrow,maybe? With sihua & dawn. Gonna catch some movies over at cineleisure & after which,will be going to Bugis to look for Job,hurhur! I wanna get a job like asap laas! & wanna buy all those pretty pretty clothes,shirts,blouse. It's all so beautiful,nice & sweet too! Never to forget,i wanna get the addidas watch too! I want all the three colours! Ha,okay,i must be crazy,but i seriously like the three colours,it's duper ultra nice please! I want lehxzxz! :(

I wanna buy schoolbag too,my schoolbag makes me look like a traditional geek. Oh,well,forget it. -.- I'm a geek from pri school till now,& ~~i'm still gonna be for my next few years life~~,No. :D Heh heh,i'm gonna change my appreance that appear towards other one hor! I don't want to always be a geek,look so nerdy,HA!

So many things i wanna buy. But definitely,i'm not going to ask any money from my parents to buy them or get them for me laas,i'm gonna get it all on my own,using my own money. hopefully,i'm able to get everything i want. :D

Oh,talking about studies again. I wanna score well for my overall marks. Which means,i wanna have the overall percentage for my Mid-year to be at least,65% & more? Yes,that's what i'm craving for,but i doubt i'll get so,why? Because,i'm sick for the whole entire week last week,without even taking care of myself . Shitxz me please. Hope i can score well. Having last paper tomorrow! I needa mug hard for the last paper already! Last paper manxz! Shiockness already okay! I hope i can score well for Design & technology. I seriously wanna beat the rest,but i doubt my ability to do so. Shag.

Alright,stop the study...

Back to other topics.

Shit i tell you,everything in my mind now is to have $$ ,HAHA! i ponder,since when i became so money minded. After i've gotten a job,i wanna work everyday & i wanna earn alot of money to repay kindness to Baby. :D He always treat me with nice foods & all sorts of things without even wanting me to pay a single shit. I seriously feel bad each time i went out with him. I don't wanna make him go broke because of me. I wanna him to save money. & also,once i gotten my pay,i wanna get him something as the present from me,for not only his birthday,our monthsary for the few months back which i owe him de. I will definitely get him something big,& not small. :D

I love baby! :D

& then,the left over money,i'll go shopping sprees! :D Coolness manxz! Oh god,i'm going crazy over clothings,clothings,clothings. Goodness,i'm crazy.

You know what,i find myself crazy & pevertic in the sense that,i always look at pretty girls on the streets when they passesby me. Some are fucking hot please! Sometimes i even told baby to look at them. Oh goodness,they're freaking hell hot. I love hot girls & hot guys. Or sometimes even gay or Lesbians. Oh,how cool manxz! & i really dooooooooooooooooo envy those pretty,rich & femine girls. They're all so cool please! How i wish i could be one too. Or have friends like this. HA!

Alright,it's all like some fantasy talk now. Whatever,this is my blog,i'm free to rant anything all i want to. :D

Fine,i shall shut up here then. Bye! :B

2008-05-12T21:36:00.002+08:00

I wanna have haircuts & i suddenly crave for Minitoons sweets,those Gummies! I suddenly feel like eating sweets lorr. Damn! :( Sigh,i miss baby very much. He's yet to be home,sadded.

Gotta go wait for him ler. :D

With loves,

Felicia.

2008-05-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

Oh god,had pizzhut as lunch today with baby. Goodness him,he's always asking for good food,well,no wonder he grows & put on so much weight,but i like it. HA! I kept piniching him today & i bite him too! Oh,he's under my torture for 5 months already,HA! No,to be exact,only few moths ago i start torturing him okay! HAHA! Okay,i sounded so pervertic here,stop me,shut up-my mouth. :El

Alright,went to library with baby today,was helping baby to finish his English tuition homwork for the whole entire afternoon we spent at Jurong west national library. The homework formats are weird okay! Goodness. >:# & it's shivering cold over at the national library & i actually din't bring my jack along. For goodness sake,i'm so dumb! >:(

Alright,then we went to somewhere near my house's cosy coner to let baby finish up his copying & i'm there,revising for my Desing & technology which is coming up the day tomorrow. Kiasu,you might think,but there's actually alot to study for,alot really. I'm burning my brain cell up now! Goodness la! :( I needa hae more memory space for me to memories more! & wth i tell you! My class is the only class in the whole Normal (T) & (A) cohort that will be returning to school for the last paper! How pathetic ! What the shit please! >:# I'm gonna go to school A-L-O-N-E already,cry please! :( I've to travel to & fore alone! This is so saddening! :(

I so freaking hell miss baby now,seriously i miss him alot. Damn lot. :( I'm crying out loud now! Oh-no,just kinddang alright. :) I just miss him way too much. Damn,i'm gonna get him into deep trouble,cause,i helped him with the homework & i'm sure,there's gonna be alot of mistake here & there,where he needa redo everything,like all over again. Ah-mi-tuo-fo,hope he will not have too many mistakes.

Alright,i'm bored now,will be having Mathematics paper 2. My second last paper. Gonna strive for the very last lap already! Gonna enjoy my holiday,out everyday! :DDDD Sure to be! I'm gonna go-get a job asap! I wanna many many dollar sign & go shopping spree with baby! :D That's why i'm looking forward the most! >:) Heh heh.

Okay,bye. Gotta run! :D
I miss baby.

2008-05-12T11:26:00.002+08:00

Baby is seriously a slow ~~air~~ pork okay! He's super duper,uber slowwwwwwwwwww. Cook him up & eat him down my intestine,rawr! >:) Heh heh. -evil smiles,winks.-

Haha,alright,i'm going to library with that slow ~~air~~ pork,fyi,this air pork can't frigging hell fly anywhere,haha! He's stupid,irritating,slow! Haha,baby,just kinddang,no hard feelings. :D I'm bored waiting for him at home. He's gonna wear his Mr. Cheerful shirt out now! :D Finally! That shirt is,that day we went to queensway,then we came across to it de. Damn cute & nice i tell you,somemore is Yellow in colour lehhs! My favourite colour,coolness! :DD -beams!-

Alright,i'm going off to get myself changed & offta meet him already! :D Bye!

Offta Library!

2008-05-11T11:42:00.004+08:00

HAPPY FIFTH MONTH WITH BABY. :)

Alright,today's our 5th month already,hope that things will turn out well & better as time goes by. I hope that my thoughts will soon be fulfilled. :)

Alright,i'm not going anywhere with baby today,cause most probably,he's going to get his handphone changed today,& also,he's having his swimming lessons today. So,we're not going anywhere.

Maybe,later when baby's having his swimming lessons,i'll go & watch? Hmmm,shall see about it. :)

I'm ultra bored now. Staying home,doing nothing,is boring. Alright,i shall reply tags now. :)

Replies :
Michelle! : HELLOS! :D You too,jiayous tooo yups! :D LOVES! :D
SIHUA : You too! Jiayous for your maths too! :D
SOPHIA! : HAHA,JIAYOUS FOR YOUR REMAING PAPERS. :)
Sheryl! : HAHA,yes yes! kindda chim. You jiayous too uhrs! Love you too! :D
JUN! : No laas,nothing happen. Am fine. :) Thanks for concern.
Junhuat : No laas,nothing happen,am fine. :) Thanks for concern. Hi anyway. thanks for tagging too! :)
sihua! : HELLOS! :D :33333
xinyi<3 : Uh? You saw me!? Where? HAHA! Jiayous too! :D
JUNGUI! : Haha,jiayous too! :D Seeya! :D

2008-05-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

Alright,i din't have tuition today,shiockness.
But was kindda shag upon receiving the news,saying that there'll be no tuition,because. I went out of the house already,stupid please. -.- Duh.

Alright,went to baby's house for some buffet sorta thing.
Met up with him first then to meet up with meiting.
Afterwhich we went to Jurong Point to have Ljs.
And then headed back to Jurong,& we went to Jian xu house.
Played Play station with baby & i won two matches against him.
He only won one. :D
I'm the winner! :DDD Say yess! :D

Alright,then headed to meet the rest of his clique.
Then we went to his house. Many of his brother's friends were there already & his relative.
Ya,his cousin is handsome indeed,so does his cousin's Girlfriend.Perfect match uh. :)
After which,ate a lil & then we went into his room.
Then yanzhen reached & he ate.

Headed to playground,they play blind mice,i sat there & watch.
Not soon after,baby sent me home.
On the way,we din't talk.
The aura is weird,the feeling isn't right.
The smiles & laughters wasn't there.
Not quite right,really.
I'm sorry.

Reached home,bathed & switch my computer on.
Nothing much to do,did some blog-hopping.

Shag,i'll still be having 3 more papers. I needa jiayou for the last three paper.
Shag. I hope i can score well...

Alright,goodnight earthlings.
Baby,i love you.
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hsai,uyo tisll ondt udnretsnad em,nvreenimd,atke a teps ta a mite.
hinkt orf em. ev'i efeligns oto.

2008-05-09T11:19:00.003+08:00

Like how we used to be..

Alright,i'm bored now,i still have 3 more papers to go before everything comes to an end. I seriously wanna let everything end asap y'know! :( I'm dead bored,really bored. Am coming home super early this two days,doing mainly,N-O-T-H-I-N-G. :(

Oh well,Mathematics paper 1 today.
I guess i'm gonna flunk maths? Ain't too sure.
Rawr!

I'm so not in the whole mood.
I'm so shag.

Some reasons behind it.
I don't wish to post,it's really stupid to post it out anyway..

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Frosted tears,never will it happen to me.
Frosted heart,it'd never be like this.
Frosted smile,just for you for that split second.
Frosted love,just for the both of us only till the love one-side melts.

Understand me more,can you?
Sometimes i really wonder,do you really love me.
Or was this love a lust?
I hope it's true love,a love that i treasure very much.
I hope it'd never be a lust.
I really wonder,am i something to you.
Yes,she maybe your bestfriend,but that doesn't mean.
You've to say those things right infront of me.
Do you know how i will feel that very split second ?
What if you're in my shoes,how will you feel.
Do you know that very split second,my tears almost roll down my cheek?
I really really needa you to understand me more,can you?
I just needa you to care for me more will you?

Is this all an illusionary love & once the clocks hits 12,everything turns back to the past like how we used to be? I really hope it isn't. I've given in my everything. I don't wish to lose a single thing i once used to have.

Every good things has an end to it?
Every good things comes to an end?
No?

2008-05-08T19:55:00.001+08:00

H i a t u s. :)

I'll be back soon,

very very soon,

Wait for me to be back yeah.

Exam's gonna end next week.

I shall update as and when i feel like it.

Whether you like it anot,this is my blog,

don't come & go as you wish,leave a tag before you leave.

I don't like to see many people viewing me,

yet no tags being given to me.

Takecare,hiatus mood on.

Bye!

2008-05-08T15:09:00.005+08:00

Replies of Tags.

Sihua:LOL,hahas,can see that you're random.
Jiesi : THANKS! :) You Jiayous too! :D
Joeyc! : HAHAHA,I LOVE JOEY.C! :D
BABY : HELLOS! Orh,okay.
Jungui : Hahaha,thanksss. You too.
Junli : zZz -.-
Sihua : Okay,will do. :)
Gemma : HELLOS,thanks thanks! Shall takecare of myself.
Wx : Okay.
Sihua : Updated & replied.
Jun : Go your blog see reply.
Sihua : Lols,i see. Random-ness. I also don't wanna quarrel.

2008-05-07T20:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BABY! :D

Alright,sorry for not replying tags & also i've not been updating you guys about my life nowadays. So sorry about it alright.

Oh ya,before i forgot,thanks to peepo who shows concern to me by tagging me & telling me to get well soon,thank you. But seriously,i'm still very sick,am still having fever now & then,ya. Well,don't be surprise if you caught me outside with my boyfriend,HA. Because,he's my daily essential,i needa him like almost everyday. Yada,even thou am sick,i still go out wit him like everyday since the day i'm down with fever,flu,cough. Yes,so don't be too surprise uh. I know...i know i'm not taking good care of myself,but i'm still able to get up on my feet to run about & giggle & talk cock y'know. & i'm still able to go to exam hall to take my exams alright. :) Thanks all,LUV! :D

Alright,Yesterday was the much-looked-forward-16th-birthday of my baby. Yes,i spend almost my whole entire day with him,despite some trival matter at the early morning. Alright,shall skip that part alright. :) & then,we went to have our breakfast at pionner mall mac. After which,we're so lost,don't know where to head to,thus,we headed to his house to get the wooden,mix-and-match,swing. Whereby you know,when you're in primary school,you'll tend to like to buy those areoplane models then you'll needa fix it,those kind? Ya,those kind. We sat at a place near his house & we fix that thing tgt! :D Am so happy. Thanks baby for your lil' lil' thing. Thanks alot,really alot.

(Skip the part where i went home..)

After which,i met baby up & then we headed to Jurong point to have his dinner. Soon,we left & headed to the basketball court near Gekpoh. Jianxu,baby's brothers,& friends were there,waiting for his arrival. & upon arriving there,we din't saw a single soul,& baby rang them up & we heard them shouting from above,the carpark. We quickly went up & we saw them lighting up the candles. Oh-my-goodness,i think at that moment,baby sure very happy one lorr. HAHA!

After everything,we played carparck catching,more details,go to baby's blog. :)

Oh ya,i've 4 more papers to go after tomorrow's history paper. I'm glad,everything's gonna be over soon! :D I'm very very very very excited & i can't wait for the day to come! :DDDDDDDD

Planed with sihua already,we're going to sentosa to have our sun-tanning & we're going to pasir ris to eat waffle & changi for bread on the tenth of june. I'm so so so - waiting-for-that-day-to-arrive! :D Baby must say he'll go sentosa with me after exam also one lorr,HEHE! :D

Planed to get a job asap after exam too! :D We're so in need of $$,we're so $$-minded nowadays,hahas! Everything that we thought of that very split minute we speak about clothes is $$. Now i see,how much i need $$. HAHA!

Alright alright,i shall stop my crap & i get going to have my bath & then to eat my medi. It's been quite a few days since i last ate my medi. Oh,goodness! :D

Goodluck everyone.

Wait,before i go. I wanna say. I don't feel like studying already. Siand,got that sudden feeling & i lose all the movtivation to study,like you seee..so well,hope to find that movtivation i lost,back.

Toodles & nights,earthlings. :)

Baby,you should know,i love you tons & that's not enough,i'll love you even more as each day goes by. You're like my drug & i'm the addict. I'm already addicted to this drug & that's you. I love you,baby. Very much. Hope that you did enjoyed yourself last night. :) My Mr. Cheerful :)

2008-05-05T16:16:00.005+08:00

Alright,am down with fever 38.3 degree. Shagness please. I'm so hungry now,& thirsty,but i freaking hell lazy to get my butt shifted! :( Please laas,i'm so so so bored now. I can't get to sleep although i've eaten my Medi. What the hell right? :(

& yes,i'm pathetic to the extend,i have to eat plain porridge as mu breakfast & lunch. :( Sigh..

Baby's not home,he went out with Meiting & jinghui to eat sakae sushi. It's his birthday tomorrow & thus,they're treating him to eat. :)

Alright,shall post again,bye. :)

DAWN: HELLOS DAWNKNEE! LOL! Lame! HAHA.

BRENDA(: : HELLOS! Thanks! :D

Jun: Ha,will do. Thanks for the tag & the pictures of me are very very very unglam. Goodness! :(

▫♥/Jessica, : HEY! :D

sharon: HAHA,will do! :D

DAWN: Thankiews! :D

sihua : Yes replying to you,but typo error. :X Paiseh luhhs. :(

Jun:HAHAHA,no,you don't have good bladder! HAHA! :P

Your's,z:I love you too! :D

2008-05-05T11:23:00.002+08:00

Alright,i'm lazy to reply tags. :( Alright,will reply taggies soon alright! :D
First paper today & i'm down with fever,flu & bad bad headache just Y-e-s-t-e-r-d-a-y! Fucking shit i tell you. So many unhappy things came to knocking on my door making me freaking hell sad,please! :(

Oops,i din't post for yesterday uh? Hmmm,nothing much. Woke up damn early yesterday like about 9+ am. Or should i put it this way,i'm drop-dead tired,& also,my bad headache kills me like totally. Wanted to sleep longer period of time,however,i can't stand it anymore. Woke up & took money from Daddy & then i went to see doctor,A-L-O-N-E! :( How pathetic can i be? Am sick yet nobody bothers about me! :(

Oh-well,drop that yesterday matter,because i take it as i never had yesterday. :)

Weather is really bad nowadays,many people are falling ill. People,do takecare of your health alright! Mid-year is here & Jiayous everyone! :D

Oh,speaking about my stupid paper today,i can't freaking hell think a tweeny-weeny bit outta my brain. No juices flows out no matter how hard you squash my brain. Only think in my mind is,to finish the paper asap & sleep! & i finish the social studies paper in about 15 mins & i slept all the way till the paper ends! I keep coughing & 'ti-ti-du-du' -ing . So sad please! My head is aching up now,like,not again?! I'm sure to flunk every single subject for this MYE. I'm in deep shit please,if i don't fucking score well! Ninnehneh! :(

Social studies = No hope already! :( Teacher,pity me please! I'm sick y'know! :(

Alright,maddness! I'm abit haywired up there. Something must have burn the wire wrongly & cause me to be like this,so abnormal! I'm so unlike me please! :(

Oh yes,baby din't went to his swimming lesson yesterday just to keep me accompanied. He's afraid that something might happen to me when he's not around with me,how good can he be,i ask you! I'm so blissed & blessed to have sucha boyfriend. Woah,shiokness manxz! Haha,duh. Random-ness! -,-lll Cheyyyy!

Alright laas,he's seriously very good to me & yet i don't know how to treasure him as much laas. I'm baddie i know,but i'm seriously trying to change for him already,as much as i can do it. & i'm trying to be more understanding already.I seriously am trying! However,'that' thing is i really cannot tolerate laas,am sorry. :( I seriously can't tolerate it. I may be unreasonable or whatever shitoxz,but i am trying my best to change. I know i can't be ther best,but i'm trying to be one. (: ILY.

Well,he accompanied me to Jurong East national Library to study,however,am so tired & sick to absorb any stupid words into my sudden-frigging-hell-small-brain,-almost-like-a-pea-brain y'know! Oh-goodness manxz! Thus,we chit-chated instead of studying,& i fell asleep. HA! After which,he wanna watch movie & thus we went to JEC's shaw to catch The Forbidden Kingdom. Alright,the show is not quite boring actually,quite nice though :) Suppose to catch Over her dead body,however,the timing is rather late,so we decided to catch The Forbidden Kingdom again. & then reach home about 8 plus. HA! Had so much fun with baby,with him it's like the sickness can sure anytime! :D

My fever went down this morning,hope it don't came & pay a stupid visit on me anymore. Am so shag now! Awwww. :(

Shall go & have my rest & then to study! Physics is tomorrow! Everyone Jiayous! :D Love-nesss! :D

Ciaoz.

2008-05-03T21:48:00.002+08:00

Alright,after all those fun i had early in the noon time,i'm so drop-dead @ home now,facing my laptop,enojying the cooling air,coming outta my air-condition. Oh,so-enjoying. :D Celebrated Wenxuan's belated birthday today over at Jurong east's Kbox. Wow,the payment was $124,were all shocked upon receiving the bill. o.o

Thank junli & sihua for paying it for me for the time being first,thanks you very much. Yes,very. :) Shall return you the money asap alright? Thanks thanks! :D

Alright,we were all so high there,in the room 27. However,we're all thirsty like maddies. Oh,goodness. HAHA! & their servicing is so damn slow,seriously slow please..tsk! Yes,and the after awhile,Junli & sihua went to buying a surprise birthday cake for Wenxuan,yes & left wenxuan,teojiahui & me in the room,singing all the Jay's song. Coolness you know! He's the sex okay! :DD

Alright,after the both of them came back,we cam-whored & then kept singing & singing. Oh,we're all so so high,& then they called for the cake. Yes,the cake is nice indeed,but very very creamy. It's a chocolate cake,we ate the white chocolate & then cute the cut up. HA!

Kept visiting the toilets,HA! No,i don't have bladder problem,junli has it. She self claim that she's toilet bowl,cause she kept drinking water non-stop & she don't need to visit the toilet AT ALL! HA,she's forever like this. HAHA! I've a better bladder than you okay! :D

Sms baby during intervals. I miss him like hell-lot. Almost all the messages i send him was all regarding, 'i miss you' . Sorry luhh,if you after you read this you've have gooseberries,but i can't help ma,people miss stead is very normal one okay! :D & he insisted to wait for me to finish accompany my FIVESOMES. How great can my superb boyf. be? Ain't he great? Yes,definitely he's. I'm so proud of him! After parting with Fivesomes,baby & i went to sit at a place,somewhere near my block. I started emoing there. Oops,din't do it purposely de,but suddenly what took place yesterday appears in my mind.

Oh ya,recently,i'm so into Jolin tsai's old songs like; 假装，倒袋，反复记号，心型圈. I fin't it all so nice suddenly. Keep repeating the song 倒袋 just now,so nice you know! HA. Alright,craps i know.

After which,i parted with baby after a goodbye hug,& i went home,reaching home at about 9.05pm. Thanks baby,for waiting me & doing nothing in the library today. Sorry. :( & yet i still made you upset. I'm sorry.

Upon reaching home,my aunt was about to go out. & yes,she's not home now! & i've all the rights to do anything i want in the room,like so yay-ness! :DD Fyi,my aunty = My mummy's younger sister,though she's not kinda of young at all already.HA! & not what you all might think,Maid. HAHA! :D

Younger cousin not in,so shuang okay! :D Double-happiness okay okay okay! HEHES!

Alright alright,baby's calling up now,gotta run! Bye! :D

2008-05-02T21:09:00.002+08:00

I shall stop the hate,hating is terrible.
I don't wanna others to find that i'm sucha petty.
Cause i knew,i mustn't be one.

I love my blog song alot. :)
Thanks sophia for the codes.
Hehe,infact,i cope from your blog.
Hurhur! :D

I hope i could attend tomorrow's Kbox,but. I seriously don't wanna borrow money from anyone. :( I'll try to go alright?

2008-05-02T19:51:00.002+08:00

Shitzxzx,sweaty plam is back again,like what the hell please,duh. -.- I don't like it,it's very very irritating. It acts up as and when it's happy with it. What the hell pleaseeeeeeeeee. :(

Alright,i'm deciding where to attend or not to attend's tomorrow's wenxuan's birthday celebration at Kbox,i'm really really having a hard time deciding,i wish that i could join them,however. I'm so broke now. Awwww. :(

I wish that i could finish the exams asap & get a job immediately & start working so that i have alot of dollar sign. Awwwww,shag-ness. :( I wanna a job-job-job! :(

Oh ya,suddenly i feel like flipping through the past years' yearbook of my school,reminscing the past,like wow. How much we've grown from there eh? All of us looks like a uber toot-ster okay. So cute,so innocent,apart from me,duh! :D Oh,& i happened to flip to this particular page where by it shows Kevin & edwin,that used-to-be-very-good-friend-and-fall-out-outta-sudden. They're seriously very cute lemme tell you,very very very cute okay! HAHA,feel like pinching them. Awwwwww!

Alright,another weeks more to go before my exams ends. Sucks please. Why must our exam drag so so so long? How shag can it be uh? Alright,whatever. -.-

Weather sucks,head is aching up now & then. Sucksssssssss-nesssss! :( Alright,offta find nice blogskins already. Love. :)

2008-05-02T14:49:00.003+08:00

Alright,baby just came to find me,along with the bubble tea. I swear,he's damn fucking cute & good to me. Yes,he definitely is. Well,i seriously think he's my superb boyfriend. :D

Alright,i'm now currently,facing boredem at home,i can't can't can't find anything to do & my head is aching up once again. Duhhh. I miss those fun i once had with my friends and all. & not the life i'm leading now,it's all-so-not-fun. Awwwwwww. :(

I've yet to bath,because some fucking ass simlpy just occupied that whole entire bathroom & he went into bath for almost 1/2 hour already! If it's me,i think it's still alright,but he a boy lehhs! A 7 year old boy only okay! So saddening! I smell sucks now,die. :( Alright,he's out. Like-so-finally. :)

Well,today's Chinese paper,i've no much confident on it,like wise,i'm always not having enough confidence. Well,hope this time round,my marks will be what i always wished for then. I seriously wanna mantain my position in class luhh. Like you know,it's kindda competitive in my class for chinese,this subject. Well well well,need mug harder next time round,hope what i say will be fulfilled,as i know,i always can't do it. -.-

Alrighto,need go off & bath & i'll be back soon! :D

With loves,
Felicia.

2008-05-01T20:48:00.002+08:00

Oh,save our mother nature. :(
It's dying like,so quickly with the 'help' of the human.
We're not helping any tiny weeny bits y'know!
I seriously don't feel like dying at sucha young age,
as i wanna spend my days in the future with him happily y'know!
I don't wanna have regrets in life.
I wanna live days to the fullest! I wanna finished everything i wished for as soon as possible before the mother nature really dies off. :(
I wanna enjoy my life & i wanna spend my life with my Fivesomes. I wanna us to have our chalet held & i seriously wanna us to get together,having heart-to-heart-talk @ very late night. & i wanna live with them in the future! There're still tons of things left undone,i don't wish to die off so soon. I wanna my everyday to be the way i always imagine,hoping that it'd all turn to true in real life.
Alright,people might think that i'm stupid to think this way,but whatever it is,i just don't wanna die of that soon at sucha young age,without even having much chances to start enjoying life yet & i've gotta die already,like y'know. How saddening it'd be? :( Alright,ignore me if you think this is all crap. :X

Alright main thing : Boring. Well-oh-well. I'm seriously bored like y'know? I so afraid that the world might come to an end soon,for god knows why am so afraid :O

I'm so panick for my tomorrow's paper,which is my second paper among all & is the second paper for this week & like in few days time,we're gonna have a whole entire week of examinations. Wow,so fast uh? :( I've yet to prepare myself for the worse & i must. Cause i knew,somehow,i might flunk this time round,very badly. Very very badly. For god knows the reason why. :(

I'm not using my time wisely at all,not at all. But i spend my time happily with baby. Yes,very happily. & also my friends. Soon,in about a few hours time,it's gonna be Ngwenxuan's fifteenth birthday already,how cool. She's that sweetie pie in our clique,& the blurr-headed her. HA! Well,here i wish her an advanced few hours Happy Fifteenth Birthday. :D May your dreams come to true & may you Last long with _ _ . :D Much loves,Felicia.

Oh-wellness. I almost forgotten to memorise the format for my chinese letter writing,which is like,so-damn-important. Goodness! :( I'm so unprepared,can you see it! :( This is the first time i feel the sudden feeling that i'm so pressuries. Oh well,i needa buck up no matter what already,how sad can it be you tell me,to actually be so-no-prepared! :(

Alright alright,i shall shut my mouth up & back to studying. I seriously needa study,but there's always one thing that keep drifting my concentration off..

So hard to mantain my concentration now-days. It's seriously hard.Alright alright,i shall get my butt shifted,cause it's sticking there for a long period of time already & i think i'm bound to get a ton with the meal i'm always having now. So not constant & always it's the junk food's fault,to lure me to eat them all up. :( Sucks man,i seriously needa go swimming or to get myself to do up some excercise already,i'm growing fat at the rate of me,eating-non-stop. :( I must either mantain the weight i'm having now,or i must become thinner & slimmer,for i swear. If not,i'd go & bang the wall hard & die off. I must get my perfect-shape back! I swear i'm gonna do that. :D

Ps: teo,when are you free? Meet up? Do up the blog & start everything asap? Heheh,with much loves. :)

Alright..ciaoz.

With loves,
Felicia.

2008-05-01T10:52:00.003+08:00

Wow,i can type 52 words in 1 min. Wow,cool uh? What about you. Try it out. :D (Credits to Teojiahui.)

Alright,offta packup & i'm going out to study again.

With loves,
Felicia.

Speed test

2008-04-30T15:52:00.004+08:00

Alright,din't attend guitar lesson today,well. I kindda lazy to go,thus i went to study with baby instead. Well,i studied chinese words,learn the spelling & asked baby to give me. :D Hehe,he's so damn cute laas. I love him to the maximum! :D

Well,todays lesson is alright,slack...whatever,duh. -.-
Baby went swimming alone,i don't know if he'll fever not,cause he says that he's not feeling kindda right. Oh well,i wanna takecare of him! :(

Alright,so sorry ya sihua. I din't accompany you to guitar lessons today. Am really sorry. :(

Well,shall end here now.
I miss baby.
Woaini. :)

Replies.

♥/Jessica,: Hey! :D Takecare tooo! & you too,mug hard yo! :D I LOVE YOU TOOOOOO! :D

Jun: Woah,sial la,you all come my blog quarrel. HAHA! :D LOLS! I LOVE YOU TOO LAA! :D Both of you are cute okay? LOL!

SIHUA: Hahaha,lol! I never laas,i really wanna study lorr. I got study you know! :DDD

TEOJIAHUI! : I love ya tooooooooooooo! :DDDDDDDDDDDD

SIHUA: Lols,yes,sihua the best alright. :DDDDD HAHA,I LOVE SIHUA TOO! :D Fivesomes always.

BABY: I love baby! :D Hehehehe. :D

2008-04-29T19:55:00.002+08:00

I'm bored now. My eyes are painful & i can barely open up my eyes,for don't know whatever reason it is. & my stomach,awww,whatever,something might be wrong about it. Oh,so whatever. -.-

Am home alone. Boring you know! :(

ILOVEYOUVERYMUCH,PLEASEDON'THURTMELIKETHIS.IT'S SOUNBEARABLEYAKNOW! :(

2008-04-28T21:41:00.004+08:00

Alrighto,just reach home.
Had my physics tuition just now,fun,funny,fun! :D
Always i enjoy physics lesson the most,cause it's the most funniest lesson among all. Well..i still wanna rant! Today's weather is really bad. I'm very very hot now. Darn,feel like killing people off. Feel like minimise the size of that stupid Sun. Awwwwww,it's so saddening,the weather is bad. :(

Well,will be having history remedial tomorrow from 2-3.30 & i needa rush down to tuition for my maths. Awwww,saddeing okay! :( Alone there okay! :( Sihua needa accompany her mother to somewhere? Yeah,her mother's birthday is just tomorrow. HA. Wish your mother Happy birthday alright! :D Love you,PSH! :D

Well,slack at some playground with baby just then.
Went home after that. Change & then eat.
All vegetable siol! Saddening,i'm so pathetic.

Pity me please,i'm having bad bad stomach ache. I'm grumbling for that ache for the whole entire day already,kill me please! :(

Suddenly i feel like buying Science assement book to practice out myself,however,i'm still considering whether to buy or not to,cause like you know,i always don't do my assement book one laas. -.- HA! But i seriously feel like improving my science,both physics & chemistry. Chemistry,i'm damn damn weak at it & physics,just border line passing,damn pathetic please! Help me! Rawrrr! I don't care,i wanna buy to practice laas! :(

Oh ya! Forgotten to add,today! Both my pens run outta ink when i'm doing my paper! Got damn damn irritated,thus,no choice,i had to borrow pen from farah. Oh well,so sway. -.- Deaddddddly. I needa many many pens badly! I needa them all in good function. Oh wellll...how i wish....

I miss baby! :(
He's smelly smelly! :D

Awwww,weather sucks,mood dampens. :(

2008-04-28T15:33:00.002+08:00

Crazy blazing hot sun,making me feels like everything is so,BORING. -.-
This kindda of weather last for about 2-3 days alrdy,like 'HELLO,i know it's globle warming now,but needa to this extend?' Oh-no,so killing me now. Shagggggggg.

Had stomach ache all for the whole entire stupid day. Not only during exams,but also after exams. Fyi,not those wanna shit that kind of stomachache,is don't know how to explain de stomachache,Arghhh! Keep complaning that the weather is hot-hot-hot! Stupid weather,making me feels like not going anywhere except hiding in my air-conditioned room. Woah,just speaking about it makes me feel like running there now & switch the air-con,ON.

Like you know,just by sitting there,without doing anything & you'd start to pespire like it's of nobody business. Isn't it 'cool'. Duhhh.I feel like going to somewhere that is fully air-conditioned.How i wish,how i wish....

Speaking about exams just now,forgotten to tell you how was the paper. Well,it's alright though,did the Formal letter writing. 3C students were being corn by their english teacher as their english teacher told them it'll be a report writing. HA HA HA. They're super blur laas. >.<

Well,composition,i did the arguementative one. I think it's easier although many told me it's v. difficult. Well,i can't really write that well for story lining,thus,argumentative would be a better choice. But risky at the same time. However,i guess,this time round i might get a better marks? Ain't too sure about it too. :(

Also,Mr Chin confiscated my correction tape,not only mine,but also my friend's. Well,he don't allow us to use correction tape & heard from sihua,if your paper were to be marked by him,he'll minus 1 mark off if he sees any correction tape marking. Awwwww,so sad. Pray hard that it's not him,marking our paper then. :)

Today's so not-fine-at-all. Weather sucks. Mood dampens. Head is heavy & pain is killing me. Oh,& also my stomach. Oh-how-great-can-it-be? :(

Great great great,offta.

2008-04-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

Hey,i'm bored. Bye.

2008-04-27T12:12:00.002+08:00

Alright,it's time for me to mug hard already. It's really time for me to do so.
Well,i might not be posting regularly alright. Due to the 3 weeks of examinations.
Oh-how-'cool' . :( Alright,gotta get my feets up & go back to study already. :D

With loves,
do visit me often. :D

Post deleted.

2008-04-26T21:07:00.008+08:00

Post deleted,things settled. :D

Oftta beddy,post up tomorrow! :D

Sincere apology to Pearlyn Chan.

Sorry for those scarstic remarks i've made.

No hard feelings alright?

It's all so fun with Mf. I love them max. :D

2008-04-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

Alright,i'm bored. I needa 'her' to come online & entertain me in my blog. If not,i'm so dead bored! :[ Awwwwwww.

Anyway,next week is my MYE,it's like in a blink of one's eyes only siol! :x Must work extra hard already.

Oh well,went to library with baby,sihua,junli & her stead to study. Saw my name there. -.- Oh well,i'm so flabbergasted after i read it. Oh well,it's so obvious,it's me. -.- Duhhhh,well,to the whom,who hated me. I hate you too then. :] Be my enemy,you've no good days.so saddeing then. :]

I'm bored. & to Junli,don't trust anyone easily. Never fall for their traps they might create. Don't fall into it,NEVER. & please,do take very goodcare of yourself alright! Anything,tell me & sihua. If can,we'd definitely help,that's what friends are for. I love you ton! :D

2008-04-24T19:53:00.002+08:00

Wao lao,i need new stationaries laa! I'm lacking of stationaries recently. Main reason : Always lost my stationaries. I guess it's really time for me to be like what Naddiah did,to write our name on a piece of small paper(yellow,that's the paper colour for her stationaries) & it's damn it cool i tell you.

My hands are blue black,thanks to today's PE lesson. Well,i played volleyball for straight 1 hours,without stopping it,it's really seriously fun. It's been so long since i last touched the volleyball & train myself already,thinking back the past ,those training,acutally its all not very tough,just that i'm not persistance enough. Damn regret please. I realise how much i love volleyball only now. Well,it's all too late to return. Well,the blue blacks are painful,however it's worth while.

Played 'dui da' with brenda,jungui,chenqi. It's damnit fun okay! I'm getting more & more on to volleyball already. I have one volleyball at home,which belongs to Junli,& i've yet to return it to her. Oops! Ha. & it's running outta air & i am wondering where the hell is the ball at now,in the store room,it's hiding! Gonne dig it outta! :D

Chenqi promised me that he'd teach me volleyball techniques! Yay-ness + shiockness sial! Last time,he's in the volleyball team when he's in China. His team is the top 3 team in National. So damn fuking cool right? Ha! No wonder he's so tall. Duh -.-

Well,i'm bored now. Baby's not home,he's out with his brother.
Oh well,i'm decomposing. My brain cells are dying. My head are aching up again. Oh,so not good. :[

2008-04-24T14:33:00.003+08:00

Well,i guess i din't have a proper post few days back? Anyway,i'm here to make up for it alright! HA. Must be real glad yo! :D

Well,i'm bored now,i'm rotting at home. It's 2.35pm now & surprisingly i'm home,home,home! It has been super duper long since i last went home so early okay! Must be very proud of myself now. HA,whatever,it's crap. I know..

Anyway,i took back my english composition today. 17/30 I think it's seriously lousy,but teacher commented that it's a good attempt. Well well. *roll eyes*

I'm going to library this Saturday & sunday with my girlfriends. Junli & sihua. Maybe Junli's stead will be tagging along too. HA! :D Well,i wanna look for that two particular book to read,however,it's all on loan. What the hell! :[ Nairmind,buy better. When i've gotten the money first than decide. HA! :DD

Baby's birthday is coming up soon. Wellness. I'm so so so don't-know-what-to-buy. :[ I'm so broke,awwwwww. I hate the feeling of being so penniless,and having a big big hole inside my pocket. Suck it. Ain't the feeling good when you gotta your pay when you actually work? Yes right! Must be,money lehhs,who don't want sio! Can donate to me de,i'm more than willing to take. HA! :DDDDDDDDDDD

Shito! I've tons of homework yet to be completed & i've tons of subjects to revise on! Most importantly,my ENGLISH! The paper 1 is coming in like,few days time,& i've yet to memorise the formate & stuffs like that. Blood suckers! Oh-my-goodness! ;[

Alright alright,i may still be posting everyday,but might be short,so pardon me yo! :DDDDD Love love.

Bye!

2008-04-23T20:43:00.002+08:00

Wellness,i'm so fed'up,upset & etcs.
The time for me & you are getting lesser.
When you hugged me just then,my heartaches.
I feel the pinch inside my heart. I felt the loneliness outta sudden.
I felt so much like a loser,so much like a sucker.
I hate being myself outta sudden.
Always i thought to myself,that i'm a jinx to you.
I always brought you unhappiness & you're always so sway when i'm around.
Like what happen yesterday,making you almost flare up.
& today,you,again,wanna create another trouble,just for the sake of me.
I know all this you're trying to do ,is to make me feel that you really do mind & care for me alot. But sorry,i don't wanna bring unfortunates to you. I don't wanna bring bad lucks to you. I don't wanna be a jinx to you.
I'm a sucker,yes. I'm a loser,yes.
FUCK IT!

2008-04-22T23:23:00.001+08:00

Sigh,i'm currently so sad,i don't know why. :[
Ignore me. I'm sad outta sudden,what the fuck.
Shit me,so sad. :[

IHATEYOUUUUUU(?)

2008-04-22T22:33:00.003+08:00

Seeee! How nice can i be? Ain't i fucking nice? (Say yes please) Cause i make an effort to come to my blog & to post like almost everyday alright! Despite me,going home late,reaching home like about 10pm? I'm god alright! :D If you say yes,thank you very much. If you say No,then foork you hard hard! >:D

Alright,anyway. I just settle down infront of my computer as i just reach home abotu half an hour ago? Well,i went to library with baby & we studied together. First time he did study okay! Great improvement baby! Jiayou for more ! :D & that sotong him,he just freaking hell realise that he's having his MYE tomorrow,only today! What the hell right?! As what i've mention,you can infer from there that he did not S____/P____ A____ right? Ha,very true indeed!

Anyway,Jurong din't manage to cling the Championship,but it's really a well done match i must say althought i can see that alot of them are panick stricken when the match first started. Well,it's normal like what baby told me. Who's not panick when you're at the match. The spectators,the competitors,the members,all will be panick. The members especially. Hundred over pairs of eyes watching the match,& moreover,it's a championship okay! Anyway,catholic high is really very hard to play against,they have very very strong players & skillful ones too. They can jump really really high manxzxzxz! :O I was so shocked when one of the teammates from catholic high Dunk manxzz! It's sucha intersting match despite the fact that Jurong lose 36 marks to Catholic high. 63:99 Anyway,i can see that Jurong did their very best already,Goob Job Jurong! :DDDD

Alright,had my dinner with baby again,at KFC. :D I'm so happy whenever i'm with him,i can be myself & he's always my listening ears,listening to what i've to complain about,what i've to nag & talk about. I know he may be sick & tired of it,but he never mention a single word about it nor does he grumbles over it. I seriously love him very much,i must say. :D

Alright,it's 10.45pm now,i'm gonna tuck in my bed soon after baby & i hung up the phone. [:

Bye earthlings. [:

2008-04-21T21:59:00.002+08:00

Posting time,again! :D
Alright,everyday was a mixture of feelings,i can say.

Well,anyway. Met up with baby just now to have my dinner tgt with him. Awwww,i start to love him more & more each day laas,how?! HA. He's super duper good to me laas,like...i just realise it outta sudden! Oh-no! How 'bo xim' can i be? To actually realise that he's good to me only until now! I'm so fortunate yet i don't even realise it. I'm so guilty about it,am sorry baby. :]

He met me at the bus stop infront of korkor house,which is busstop near 745? I guess so. As i just got release from tuition & it started to downpour like so damn heavily which i don't know what to do & hence,Sihua & i decided to dash across the road when the green man lights up.

Chiong all the way like maddies,felt so 'orh-piang' outta sudden! :O It's so shito to actually run across the road,wearing school uniform,drenched like what-the-hell & looking so haggard. It seems like some 'ah-soh' dashing across the road with a bag over the head to shield themselves from the rain,which i think is up to no use anyway. -.- You'll still be wet as a whole. LOLOL! Looked so kuku that moment. :[

Anyway,its our luck to blame. Why? Mainly because,it'd be raining cats & dogs when our tuition ends,it's always this case,never change. Pfttttttt! This is so saddening please. Why must we be so unlucky uhr?

Okay,English paper 1 will be held next monday. Which is like coming so fucking soon? I don't know how! I needa study study! Baby,go study with me okay okay okay?! I wanna you to study with me! :DD

Alright,i seriously seriouly needa pull my socks up & score well in this exam already,i must must must score well okay! If not,i can jump down from the building anytime. -.-

Revision are starting to piles up as a whole damn lot. History remedial this wedneseday maybe at AVA room or PANEL room. Aircondition siol! I will definitely attend for sure in this case! Got aircondition lehs! Waolao,shiock-ness okay! :DDDDDD

Will be attending the B boys basketball national finals tomorrow at Toa Pahyo Sports hall. Hope that our school will be able to cling the championship okay! :D Win the glory back! :D Jurong can definitely do it! Jurong ace Jurong ace Jurong ace ace ace! :DDDDDDD All the uppersec will be attending. It's been 123456789 years since i last went for the supporting stuffs already,i miss the times,moments,everything! It's so fun being there although it's fucking hot & stuffy there. However,Toa pahoy sports hall is fully air-conditioned! Which means,it'd be shiock-ness again! :DDD Wooooohooooo! :DDD

Oh god damn it! I'll be having my chinese spelling test tomorrow! Damnit please! :[ I've yet to study the words for tomorrow spelling! Die la die la! I must study,but i'm lazy! Arghhhhh! Forget it,don't bother already,i shall study it tomorrow! I know i can do it,but i depends whether i wanna it or not,Teeeheeeheee! :DDD

Okay,it's time for me to get my ass off already,it's getting late now. I'm turning into my bed & wait for baby's phone call already,what a sweet & lovely boyfriend i have. He's so sweet to me! :D I love him tons! :D

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I bet you din't know. I kind of hate to be with you already. I hate those scarstic comments you gave me whenever you're out with me. I don't know what causes the change in you. Although say,we're once a very bestfriend,however,things are changing. We don't do the things we use to do. We don't play the things we used to play. We don't have long mid-night chats which we onced used to chat till the next day. All the moments are now gone,vanish in just a few months time. I hate all this changes that have took place. I wanna us to be back like how we used to be. All the fun & happy moment and definitely not the changes you made towards me. I don't know what i've done that made you to always pick on me(this is what i think) & to be so sacarstic towards me. That time you told me that you hate the changes i've made,i did change. I really did change for the friendship sake. But it seems like you don't kind of bother. Nevertheless,i think that although you still tells me how you feel & think,but it's never like last time. You never confides to me anymore. The gap between us that i wanted to close up so much,is widening instead of closing up. It's all so sad to mention about. I know i could have done better,but i guess its time for me to tell you. I've done my very best,i guess it's your turn to.. Many of a times,i kept silence. I don't wanna us to end up quarreling. But it seems like you're getting more & more over. I'm respecting you ,but you don't give me the sorta feeling that you're respecting me. Your attitude towards me is on & off. You'd be so scarstic towards me. Or you'd give me the feeling that you're very pissed off by me when i don't even know what i did that made you felt so pissed off. I'm always pondering over these questions. I really hate the attitude you're giving me nowadays. I'm really trying my best to tolerate & trying very hard to bottle up everything inside me,but i can't anymore,because it's all so hurting & it's all so heartaching whenever the moments we spent tgt flashes back. Those time we're so sad that we hugged together & cry,i bet it's all a past tense to you now. Do you still regard me as your bestfriend? It's drifting further further from what we used to be like. I hope it's all my sensitive-ness.

God,salvage this friendship this is so important to me,cause she's my someone i can never fall out with.

2008-04-20T18:01:00.003+08:00

Alright,it's boring today. So uber boring! :[
Baby went to Fou Tang early in the morning.
I'm still sleeping at the unearthly hour. :]
Well,woke up at about 11. Did the new blogskin. :D
Very happy! :D

Alright,this is a super short post,i'll be posting again later! :D
I'm hungry now.. :[
I wanna go swimming again! :D

[edit]
Alright,back add what i've yet to post for just now. :D Well,i'm not doing anything much now. It's so not a load of laughs for me today! D: It's gonna be his birthday in about 16 more days! It's arriving in no time please!

Baby is having his yummylicious dinner now! & i'm here updating. Well,i'm bored bored bored! ;[ Alright,i'm having my first language paper in no time! About A week? & i'm still not prepared! ;[

I guess i needa start going to Libraries & galleries to study already! ;[ My pretty sihua,accompany me there will you? :D

I've gotta start studying for my physic & chemistry already. I'm lagging so way behind! I needa practice my mathematics more & i needa brush up my english more more more! :D

I'm having my oral exam next week? I ain't sure,i'm sure to panic when i'm having my English oral exam,that Mdm priya look so stern & fierce. :[ Well,just treat her as if she's my friend. :D

Chinese i guess it'd be alright? D&T,i needs start memorising the formula & all the mechanism thingy & stuffs like that. I've got so many things to do,yet so little time to study! ;[

So many things! Rawr! :[ Nevermind,i'd study hard still,despite the stress! Kick that stress word outta my mind & just concentrate on what i should concentrate on. :D Jiayou for myself! :D

Alright,i shall throw all the unhappy things that might happen at the back of my mind & concentrate for 1 month! Excatly 1 month i guess? Yes,so that i can score well! :D

Hey peeps,if you guys are going to Library! Kindly kindly jio me out too okay! :D I wanna tag along okay! :DDD Love love love! :D

Alright,i shall get my ass off this computer chair & off to eat my dinner! I'm hungry hungry! :D

2008-04-20T15:39:00.002+08:00

Teojiahui's birthday celebration pictures! :D More pictures @ JUNLI's blog! :D

2008-04-19T20:41:00.002+08:00

18 April 2008

Sorry for not posting yesterday. I went home late & by the time i finish bathing & cleaning up,it's too late for me to actually go online & blog about everything that happened yesterday. So well,sorry anyway. [:

Alright,i shall get on to the main point. :D

We celebrate TEOJIAHUI's birthday over @ Junli's house. Thanks Junli for lending us your place! HA! It's been 123456789 years,since i last met TEOJIAHUI,that pretty pretty sunshine ladeeee already. I'm quite sad about it,cause we're seriously drifting apart,so A-P-A-R-T! ;[

Well,so anyway. After leaving school,i went home to have my bath & everything. I immediately went over to sihua house & went to buy things over @ the prime supermart.

We brought (for the day) :

Wip Cream.
Flour.
Birthday cake :Fair Lady.
Flower from :Junli.
Birthday present : Brikenstone alike shoe.

After which,we went to Junli's house to prepare things & then was crazy & high. We were playing with junli's camera & we're snapshooting. Crazy & high. So happy ya know! :D Well,this is the part where we're waiting for Wenxuan & Teojiahui! :D

After Teojiahui's arrival,we were high like maddies. So crazy & retard with our every single action espcially our host for the day,TEOJIAHUI! Her action was super duper retard & made me laugh like hell-mad! Okay,Fivesomes gets cranky-crazy everytime we met out.

Sad news arrive; NGWENXUAN(!) wasn't able to attend the party anymore! Like,i'm so sad please! :[ very very ultra x 10(power of trillion) please! :[ It's really long since Fivesome hang out together! It's always one of them that cannot make it on time! Okay,well. It's alright. Hope to hang out with them again real soon. I miss every single one of them in Fivesomes! I favourite ladeeeeeeeeeeee-sssssssssss! :D

& then,we decided to cake the cake at 7 plus. We switched off all the lights & then we sang birthday song for Teojiahui. While preparing the candles,she was waiting in the kitchen & she wanna act as if she's being touched & surprised by our birthday cake that day! It's ultra funny i tell you! Seriouly,she can go be a LAME-ACTRESS already,HA! She's very sacarstic,well,she's always that scarstic,but i love her still. :D Hahas!

Cut the cake & we ate the cake. To me that cake was alright,not that bad. & then we set off to the carpark beside junli's house. We played wip cream & flour . We took the cream & smash it on TEOJIAHUI & with the flour too. Was really really fun. It's the most enjoyable night i've spent. I really love my times/moments with them. They're my dearest friends. They're simply everything! :D

Went back to junli's house after that & bathed. Pair by pair. I bath with Teojiahui whereas sihua bathed with junli. they're fast & we're simply slow. Well,we're more dirty than they do,of course we needa more time to bath,clean! Haha! Alright,Teo is being shy to acutally bath with me. & thus i bathed first & then her turn. She was sitting near the door,facing the door. I was bathing happily. Hahas! Chatting & stuffs like that. After bathing. It's her turn & i went out of the toilet. We took our own sweet time to bath,hahas!

Out and then we decided to play "Zhong Ji Mi Ma" & if anyone were to hit that number,we were suppose to be punished by drinking peach vodka with Greentea mixture. I drank a few cups & baby drink 3 cups i guess. One of the cups he helped me to drink it. Thanks alot baby.

Alright,we left Junli's house at 9.30 . Baby & i parted with Sihua & Teojiahui after we left Junli's house. We went on our different ways. Walk to the busstop near Boonlay Sec & waited for 243G. However,to no avail after a long wait,baby & i decided to walk home. On my way,i was having bits of moodswing,a droplet of tears was lingering there. & then baby was keeping silence. After reaching home,i felt much better & talked more to him. Sorry uh baby. I bet i made you worried quite alot. :X So sorry. :[

Reached home & then i went to wash up my clothes & then bathed again. Out & baby called,just nice.& then chatted till 11.50 plus & we went off to bed,i bet he's way too tired already,thus hang-up for the day. [:

*Pictures of the day will be posted on the next post. So stay tune alright! *

19 April 2008

Reached home at about 8 plus. Went to vivo for today with Junli,sihua,baby & kuanhoe , after our tuition. Sihua & i went to Jurong point to meet up with baby,Junli & kuanhoe. After which we took bus 30 to the busstop behind my school. Alight there.

Was suppose to meet up with Shuling,however,she din't reply to my calls & smses. Was kindda sad & shagged. Felt so being-put-on-an-aeroplane. :[
Waited her for about an hour,we decided to send her a sms & tell her that we needa leave already,can't wait for her anymore. Felt bad & sorry to leave without her. I'm so sorry aye. :X

After which,we took 30 to vivo. It's really fast (to me,for today),don't know why. Maybe i ain't that bored or something because baby was there with me? :D With him,my day was being brighten up. So happy. Very delighted. :D Thank baby,i love you alot. [:

Upon reaching vivo,we decided to grab our lunch,as junli & her stead was hungry,thus we decided to grab Superhotdog as our lunch,however Junli,sihua & kuanhoe left as they say that the food there ain't attractive & it don't seems to be nice. I spent alot of time telling them to try it out,but they just don't want to. So anyway,it's alright. Thus they left to Kfc at harbourfront. Baby & i ate Superhotdog there & it's yummylicious! Oh-god! :DD

After which,we left Superhotdog & went to Kfc & look for them. Watch them eat & then we left to Newurbanmale shop. Baby finally brought a White & red Brazilliano Paria (? Issit being spelled in this manner? I not very sure too. ) Supposingly,it's white & Electric blue brazilliano paria,however,it's dirty & we din't check before we left the place. Went back to get it changed & we changed to White & red,trusting that it'd be clean. However after we left,we realise that the stripe is dirty! It has bits of yellowish stain there! Baby was so heartpain & sad about it. However,he got himself comfort after a few comforting words he said & i said. :D

Cheer-up baby,nobody will notice it & somehow it'd still be dirty when you wear it alright,don't be to upset about it yeah! :D Love love.

After which,we walked around & then we went to the roof to play with the water. Baby sat there with the accomapnion of Kuanhoe while waiting for us to walk one round in the water. Ha! Went home at about 6-7.

Reached home & i bathed. Settle down & i've yet to eat my dinner. Ha! Alright,i shall end here soon. Pictures for yesterday will be posted up soon,i hope so. : ] Alright,toodles! :D

2008-04-17T18:28:00.006+08:00

♥ Survey
Being asked to do this survey by : KhorJunLi! (:

1] At what age do u wish to marry?
- I don't feel like getting married anyway. -.-

2] What you want the most now?
- Money! Money drop from the heaven pleaseeeeeeeee!

3] Who is the person you trust the most?
- Fivesomes & Baby.

4] Do you think you have enough confidence?
- No,not at all. -.-

5] If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- I wanna me a Millionair! :D

6] Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- YES! :D I saw it with My baby & friends! :DDDD

7] What is your goal for this year?
- To score top 5 in Level position!

8] Do you believe in eternity love?
- Not really,it's really hard to believe. :[

9] Have you broken someone heart that he/she tried to comit suicide?
- No? Who's that lame that he'd die for me? OF COURSE NO ONE LAAS!

10] What feeling do you love most?
- Oh,thrilling & exciting feeling! Wooohooo! :D

11] What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
-HAHAHA! Handsome tan hot hunk laa! No laa,joking! No preferences actually.

12} What feeling do you hate the most?
- Feeling insecure & lacking of confidences.

13} Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Of course laa! Who don't sial? Nin-neh-eh.

*14} Is wrist cutting stupid?
- No? Sometimes yes.

15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Nothing is important to me. -.-

16) Who do you hope to be always there for you?
- BFFs & Baby.

17) Whose y0ur best friend?
- Sihua,Junli,wenxuan,jiahui! :D

18) Who cares for you the most?
- I don't know? Baby & Mf?

20) Do you think "Love" is stupid ?
- Yes!

Instructions:Remove 1 question from above,and add in your personal question,make it a total of 20 questions, {p.s 14* is the question is edited. Actual question is Do you believe in god? } then tag 6 people in your list,list them out at the end of this post.Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have a blessing from all.

People who've been tagged :
Jinghui,Gemma,Sheryl,Brenda,Michelle,Selina! :D

PS! Click "View" on the top left hand corner & click source! Copy & paste the question from there! :DD Sorry for the trouble! :D

2008-04-17T18:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEOJIAHUI! :D

I hope you'd enjoy your day today & hope you'd stay as cheerful as always.
I'd like to meet you up real soon! :D I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuu alotttttttt! :D
___

I'm bored like almost everyday. :[
I start to feel like i'm of nobody's business already. :[
Whatever it is. I'm so boredddddddddd!

Alright.

School today is alright. I din't put in effort to study for this week. I don't know why too. Well,whatever it is. -.-
Played Vball & badminton with haorong,kanghao & kevin. Well,it's fun! :D & i freaking hell owe haorong a packet of drink. HA,shall return it to him tmr. He's sucha airhole Tsk!

I'm so bored now that i don't know what to blog about today!
Oh ya! I learn ten new word/phrases! :D

Bend over backwards
Burdensome
Cumbersome
Formulate
Put someone in the picture
Toil
Keep the wolf from the door
Voracious
Not a load of laughs
Scrooge

this is what i've learnt today! I'm happy! & i shall say,today is not a load of laughs. Oh my god!

Skipped mathematics tuition today,as i'm do drop-dead lazy! I feel like sleeping almost everyday! :[ Awwwwwwww,so sad!

2008-04-16T22:50:00.001+08:00

Feel like changing my blogskins. I'm sick & tired of it.
Any recommendations? I needa some! :[

Alright,bye.
That's all for tonight.

2008-04-16T21:02:00.002+08:00

Alright,just came back from guitar lesson not long ago? Baby sent me home. :] Love-love. :D

Alright,had my afternoon lunch with Tohjinghui & my stupid cousin,-.-! He's sucha an ass,wanna lock up people's fruits. -.- This is so damn lame please. -.-

After which,Jinghui came over to my house to slack. Chatted & then she went off at 5.40pm. I used the comp & then off to change & off to guitar.

I'm bored now. So damn bored now. -.-
Alright,nothing much more. Bye.

Ifi lovefer Linzhilin. Ifi-missfi-youfu. :(

A weeks more to go.. :[
I'm so not prepare to go for a battle. :[
Feel like giving up,tsk!

2 more weeks to go..

2008-04-16T14:39:00.002+08:00

Alright,i went home immediately as soon as teacher releases us from school.
Rushed back home,& i freaking hell reach home at about 1.40? o.o! That's very very very early, it's been very long since i reach home at about 1 plus plus pm already! :D Good job,Ft. [ :

Well,i'm late for school today,with the accompanion of sihua too. Sorry to drag you down :X I'm so uber sorry. :X Well,then we took bus to Gekpoh & intended to take taxi there as sihua mention,there has got alot of taxi. However,due to suay-ness. We din't got any,even there's vacant Taxi,the uncle seems to fucking unable to see us flaging for cab. Noob-shit! -.-

Whatever,walk here & there,was hungry,thus i went to Macdonald to buy two hushbrown to eat,gastric was grumbling. Damn! -.- & then went out to take bus. Fuck that 243w bus,it's damn fucking full. Thus we headed to the opposite side to take 243G. Well,reach school at about 8.10 & you know what? Sihua & i din't knew that the school will call up our parents to tell them that we're late for school. Damnit! This applies to only when you're later after the time 8.00 am. Which is like,i was wondering. Since when did the school have this rule?! I din't even knew it which is like,i'm already in the school for the third fucking cheefi byefive year already! -.-

Alright,drop this matter,makes my blood boil speaking about it. -.-

Now i'm home,gonna get creaking with my D&T already,it's been very very very long time since i touch my D&T already. Needa catch up with work & not to let others catch up with me! :D

Alright,takecare. I shall end this post here. Bye!
PS: My english today for this post is very very bad. I don't know why. Happy? Read it. Unhappy? Leave it alone then. [ :

Love love.

2008-04-15T20:40:00.003+08:00

Hi! [:

Just finish my blog-hopping due to boredness.
I'm going Oh-so-crazy-cranky now. I'm so-so-so-don't-understand-why.
Why i see so many people imitating how i blog & all? o.o
Am i being too sensitive or was it that what i think & see is right? But i trust what my eyes & mind tell me,is. I hate it a truck-bucket loads. Fuck!
Well,not pin-pointing. It's plainly just wondering why. I don't friggin'hell like hardcore copycat-ers. Copycat-ers has got no life man! Shitxz.

Well,mid year is round the corner. Gotta get my socks pulled up & get my confidences back in one whole piece & not bits & pieces here & there. No! I don't allow myself to fail my mid year. None of the paper should be broader line passing. It must at least hit a 60. I'm kind of giving myself too much pressure. But well,that's upper secondary life. I must be really glad that i'm not in thru-train class. If not i don't know,my BFF will get to see how haggard i'm. Oh-so-umglam-please! :X

Well,baby is having his Lessons at Fou tang currently. & i'm here rotting,decomposing & all. Damn me. I'm bored with him entertaining me.

Oh-so-great! I finally did my homework & finish them,all! That's very very encouraging & very very very rare that i would do homework if it's last year. Or should i say,even there's homework,i don't even bother to do? HA. Well,that's the past,Presence is presence. I shall not look back. :D Alright,i shall continue to work real hard to achieve better results.

Well,i ain't sure if i'll still be blogging daily? I bet yes? Unless i'm far way to lazy to do so,then too bad. Wait for my lastest updated post alright! Keep trace off my life. Ifi-lovefer-youfu. [ :

I miss BFFs badly! I wanna go out with them! It's been 123456 years since i last went out with them! Hey,BFFs,if you happen to see this! Do some self reflection! Make some time out for Mf! Lets go take neoprints alright? Why not during teo's brithday?! :DDDDD
I miss TEOJIAHUI v.much! :(

PS: TEOJIAHUI! Have you forgotten me,this bestie of yours? You must have forgotten me right? You din't come my blog to tag me as often as you can lor! Wao lao! Where can like that sial. How could you have got me placed behind of your mind?! I miss you v.much lehs! I don't care! I wanna go out with you sometime! You better make some time for me! We're drifting you know?! I don't want,i wanna us to be back like how we used to be,playing & fooling around. Studying tgt! Study tgt with me laas! I miss you laas! Did you miss me anot?! MY BESTIE(FO'LIFE)?!
Ifi-missfi-youfu.

2008-04-15T15:35:00.002+08:00

Mens. sucks a big time,damn! >:@

I'm damn hungry & bored now. No one to entertain me at all,shag.

Well,school's very boringggggggggggg today. I keep dozing off during Maths lessons & physics too. Damn! & i fucking slept for 2 hours plus straight. Was really really tired & feel so weak today,din't know why. -,- after which,we were being held back due to .. My form cher,he wants to re-arrange our sitting arrangement. Thus,held back for about 15-20 mins. It's so boringgggggggggg.

Baby reach home kindda early today. He sms me immediately after he reached home i suppose? Yeah,i suppose. & i replied his sms & all.

I don't really know what to post now. It's boring boring today.

I'm having split headache now & then. The pain really bad today,why i kept having headache uhr? So shagg. Today's mood is shag & plus! i've got mens,it dampens my mood totally.

Oh ya! Forgotten about this,my English teacher is being changed. From Miss crystal tan to Mdm priya. Oh well,she's so scarstic & she freaking hell know F language,i told her to teach me & she say that she's a english teacher who teaches english & not F language. Damn! So shag please! zZz!

Well,i had a composition to do. I don't feel like doing it lehhs,the mood is not there. How? I'm dead meat.

That pig pork pig pork pig pork is oink-ing now. Freak him,he's sucha pig pork! Kill him for me please! >:@ Bite him! >:El

Nothing more to post,bye! :]

We're gonna go thru it all,thick & thin tgt.

2008-04-14T21:18:00.004+08:00

I'm going crazy over 99 buses!
It's getting me more & more unbearable to not speak Vulgars. :X
Well,i'm trying my very best to pick up F language as soon as possible & then i can talk my secrets out loud,without people know what i'm trying to say. Haha! That's definitely super duper cool right? Alright,lame shitxz.

Back to topic.

99 buses sucks a hell lot. Damn it you know. What the fuck! >:@
I hate those night 99 buses,full of humans sardins. Ninfin-nafa-beifey.
I feel like killing the human sardins one by one & lemme get into the bus.
I fucking waited for 123456 years for my turn to get up the bus you know!? & i can't fucking get my ass up there,to join in the 'fun' of human sardins with sihua along,you freaking hell know? No?

Well,today's physics is rather easy though as compared to the rest of the lessons. It's more merrier,yay-ness manxz! :D

Alright,lemme talk about the interesting thing that took place this very freaking cheefi-byefive morning.

Was very very happy that baby self claim that he the MOE of singapore,declaring that there'll be no school. Well,the actual fact is that he wanna accompany me to outrum for my dental appointment. Damn him,he's my cute love laa! He made me so touched by his actions please-e-e-e-e! :D Alright.

Lemme continue..

& then,after my dental. We decided to settle down at taman's mac to have my breakfast with him. & i was very happy,thinking that on my way,nothing would 'happen'. But that friggin'hell teacher appear. Lemme not say out who's she/he. Just a DM of my school. -.- She caught me with baby walking out of the mac. Giving a hardcore stare at me & him. Giving me the expression What-the-hell-are-you-doing-here-F-E-L-I-C-I-A!? Ain't-you-suppose-to-be-school-at-this-point-of-time?! , look. Like you know. It's friggin'hell scary laas. Forget it,i pretended as i & him were plainly, friends. :]

Baby asked me what would happen & sorts of things,told him that i could just simply give excuses to DM. & i fucking hit the jackpot. I was right for what i've said earlier on. Friggin'hell,that DM called my form cher,who is also another DM in my school. & that form cher of mine called up my mother & told her everything about it. -.- Which is like,whatever?! Do you think i give it a damn? No,fyi. -.-

& then i she asked me all sorts of things & stuffs,i replied in a firm way,that's of course,if not she would know that i'm lying or things like that.

Went home,then asked her why she ring me up & then she the same questions again,like. Arhs,whatever. -.- Replied back the same thing,it matters only whether she wanna believe it not. Duhh!

Then that father of mine,came to ask me the SAME exact question,like again! & i was really fed'up. I told him,why must everyone ask the same question when i have repeated the answer upteen times. Fuck please! Ninfin-nafa-beifey,cheefi-byefive laas! I ignore him all the way. He told me not to treat him like an idiot,having that navie thought that he don't know anything. Well,do you think i give it a big fuck? No,fyi! Thank you very much. : ] Basfar-tardfer!

& i shall not post out what i've said to them. It's a confidential thing,know it,keep quite,if not,too bad for you. :]

Bad,i needa improve on english las! I wanna read up story books please! Any kind soul to buy the two books i wanted for me? Pretty please? :D

Well,today baby went to celebrate Junzhi's birthday with his brother,in advance. His birthday is on the 16th April,so here i wish his brother(Junzhi) a Happy 16th birthday. [: Enjoy,yo! :D

For you say,you'd stand by my side
& go thru thick & thin with me.
Never,will you leave.

I-fi-love-fer-you-fu. :]

2008-04-13T16:42:00.002+08:00

Story book,i needa get two of them which i wanted very much! :(

Life on the refrigerator door.
Abandon.

I'm so bored at home,i've got nothing to do. So,by reading story books that's being recommended by other readers,perhaps it'd kill my extra time & lemme improve on my english more. :D Kill two birds with one stone,Yay-ness! :D

Alright,i just reach home,not long ago. Back from Physic(Light) tuition. I'm late for todays lessons for about, 15-20 mins,well. It's better to be late than never,right? Haha!

Well,baby is now having his swimming lesson,& i'm rotting down here. Boring-g-g-g-g-g-g-g-g! :[

I feel like playing basketball all of the sudden,please! :O Well,at the mean time,i also feel like picking up my volleyball skill too! Suddenly,i feel like going swimming,playing badminton,volleyball,basketball! Wow! So cool uhr? Well,i really hope to train my stamina. It's way to lousy,tsk tsk! -.-

Likewise,i'm looking for someone to accompany to accomplish all of the activities above.

Alright,from this post,what can you infer? (HAHA! Make you do inferences,see how well your inferences skill is,HA! Nah,joking!)

Answer : Felicia is not only bored,but hayweird up there,too! :D

I miss baby quite badly.Without him,life seems quite quiet,so lifeless. With him,it's kindda irritating,to have him saying nosensical stuffs,acting retard,asking retard questions like "Where's the toilet? Where to xuxu? At the bush? Where can xuxu?" This sorta question,he prompt. What the fuck right? He's not only being lame,also joker. People must find him zero IQ if he were to ask like this outside,to other people. HA! -.-

Alright,i guess he's ending his swimming lesson quite soon,but i suppose he's gonna play with his little brother for a little longer. HA!

Here i goes,rotting,decomposing ----->Skeleton! :O Nah nah,joking only alright! :D

God damn it,i wanna read story books! I wanna play basketball right now! I wanna do everything i've listed above in this post! Rawrrrrrrrr! >:@ Alright,i'm going crazy,ignore me. TSK! :[

Sent me to metal Hosp. :[

Bye!

2008-04-13T10:16:00.002+08:00

Alright,i din't post yesterday. I freaking reach home only at 10pm. :O!

It's really lucky that my parents were all sound asleep when i reach home,left with aunty watching T-E-L-E-V-I-S-I-O-N. -.-! She seems so addicted to Television nowadays. Her eyes & butt simply got glued down there at the sofa,for consective few days already. Like,Oh my freak hell god,she's gone back to that lazybummy her,& she still have the cheek to say i'm the one being lazier than i should be. Freak you manxz! -.-!

Well,went out to have my tuition yesterday & went out to vivo with baby to catch Run,papa Run. Suppose to chose between Step Up2,but it's selling fast & the sits are all left with single form. Thus,drop the idea & headed for Run papa Run instead. Well,the show is quite interesting after all,not-bad show. :D

Enjoy my day with him,walking up & down the escalator,heading to nowhere,just mainly walking & chatting along our way. Alright,times-up,needa go home,he sent me home & while we're at interchange,he went to brought two coconut jelly for me,thinking that i would love it very much,but i dissapoint him. Cause i hardly eat coconuts nor drink coconut's water. :X So sorry my baby. :X Should have tell you before hand,sorry. :X

Well,after which he sent me home & he went home too. Thank baby. :D
As soon as i reached home,i went to bath & on my computer immediately. :D
Off-d asap after baby called. & then went to beddy & chat with him till midnight 1 plus. Offta sleep as aunty is coming in. Said bye & put down already.

Gonna have tuition at 2 later on,gotta go on my own,shagg. Well,nevermind. :D

Baby,i really do love the moments i spent with you.
I hope we'd last really long. You know,i love you.
You can count on my words,cause i do love you so.
So deeply fallen,so deeply attracted. :D
Baby,i love you so.

2008-04-11T21:22:00.002+08:00

Happy Fourth Month,Baby. :]

Alright,nothing much to post about actually. I'll just roughly go through everything that took place today alright.

It was raining cats & doggies early in the morning,& hence no Flag rasing,great! After which about 11 plus,baby went to school to fetch me & we headed to JEC with kevin along in the bus,but he went home first.

Upon arrival,none of there isn't any nice movie for us which we supposingly wanted to catch , Run papa Run. However,it's not showing. Thus we ended up not watching any movies. We headed to watch people ice skate,but! There's too little peeps. Shagg. Went to eat Mc Flurry. Sat there for awhile. & off we went to Library. Sat there,play with bottle caps,playing with each other. & kevin arrive. He went to Boon Lay with us to play Basketball.

Baby was "drench" totally after the final match. Well,he's sucha "Sweat-er" Lol! :X Anyway. That's all for today. : ]

Cheers,bye. :D

Sorry,i don't know why.

I just keep thinking that you're not truthful.
You're not truthful towards me. Not at all.

I just keep having the feeling.

I don't know why.

I just have that stupid feeling.

You're not loving me as much.

When you hugged me tight that very moment.

I can't feel your love.

I can't feel your heart beating with my heart.

I can't feel the link.

I can't think of ways to convince myself.

That you still love me.

You really do.

Why?

I've got no confidence in you.

I'm a loser,a failure.

Forget it.

So be it.

Bye.

Felicia blue.

2008-04-10T20:38:00.002+08:00

Alright,my head is spinning round & round.
I've got so many things to settle,alot of stuffs to help out.
For the sake of friends,i needa do that minimum i can.
Well,i don't promise i can help alot.
But i'd try my best. : ]

stress,bye.

Today is not the day for me.

2008-04-10T18:31:00.002+08:00

NAPFA today,sucks a big time.
Shall not mention about it anymore,it's just simply unfair! Damn! Drop this topice.

Reach home at about 6? I ain't sure too,bath & then i'm right now using this "old" computer of mine,simply because i can't be bothered to take my laptop out. Damn me. Lazy-bum,shitxz! I've yet to eat my dinner too,oh well.

Went to sophia house right after school dissmisal. Many of a things happen just in a day due to some stupid draft? Okay,whatever it's. Shall not get myself invovled too. Neither ask me about it,i don't feel like bringing up the matter too. It's just too,okay,none of the phrase can describe how i feel anyway. So..whatever. -.-

Alright,kindda attitude i know,pardon me. I'm not in a very good mood now.

DNT today,kindda boring. Lesson was all about mechanism. It's boring boring-oo. & we were being punished to stand still for about 10 mins,cause we simply wasted our teacher's time. What a lame joke,HA! -.-

Alright,nothing seems to interest me for the entire day. Nothing seems to be right for me. Damn,i'm hectic enough. Please,leave me alone. I needa peace of mind.

Forget it. Bye! :[

2008-04-09T23:15:00.002+08:00

Attend : MC .

Din't went to school today,don' feel like going. Mainly cause,i dont' wanna attend the D&T field trip to YISS. It'd be super boring i bet! So i din't go to school. Woke up from my sleep at 12 plus. Ate something & then off to vacuum the house & then slacked abit.

Took a nap. & then off to guitar lesson with sihua love.

Alright,baby went to fetch me after my guitar. Thanks baby. Well,he's over hyper-active today. Don't know why too. Ha! Alright,& he keep twitching my skin. Damn him! I twitch his too! Hahas! & then home.

Alright,i got all the smilies up on my tagboard. BUT!
Damn the stupid computer of mine. Fucking log me out of the webpage & then all the hardwork is GONE! Fuck please! All the cute cute smilies i've found is now gone! What a waste! I needa redo it tomorrow! Damn fed'up. :[

PS: Sihua love,cheer up alright. You're not a failure. Just that you've undergo more things & gain more experiences from there & you'll think you're not a failure alrd. I'm just telling you what occures on me. Well,do takecare & last long. Remember every single word i say. :D Love you! :DD Seeya tomorrow! :DD

Alright peeps,offta sleep. Nights! :D
Love love.

Understand the bits & pieces of me,every pieces.

2008-04-08T18:16:00.002+08:00

♥You needa' know,so.

I do love you so.

I'm so down now. I don't know what the fuck my brain is trying to make me think or do. Whatsoever,i don't like having so much thoughts running non-stop. It's gonna kill me sooner or later,whatever it's you know,Fuck. :[

That every inches of me hurts so deep down. As expected,there'll always be problems occuring just a few days before our anniversary. Can any God-like kindly tell me why? What's the big sin i've ever done in my life,that you needa punish me in this way? Am so wrong,so entirely wrong.

I know,i'm a changed person. Not mentioning in school/studies. I mean in attitude. Yes,i'm a changed person. A nasty,nuisance,irritating,bad-tempered one. Getting more & more unable to control my mood-swings nowadays. Getting very very fed'up & pissed by who-the-me ,is now. I'm a shitxz,i know.

The fact that i'm always being so idiotic,so not favoured,i'm used to it already. I onced said i must look life in a positive way. But nothing in life can make me fulfilled what i wanna achieve. It always fails me. Just tell me what's that fuck i did that i needa be punished this way. Tell me,you. Tell me!

I'm really torn into two big pieces. I don't know why.

You say i can make your day a brighter one,yet at the same time,also a spoilt one. I know i'm stupid shit,that ain't worth anything. I just simply don't know why,why have things that's coming outta my mouth not being filter in my brain before exit-ing my mouth? Why,tell me,you. Perhaps i've bird brain.

Damn,i hate emo nemo post,forget it,i shall stop here. Bye.
Felicia Blue-Felicia (Sad)
Very true indeed,i'm represented as BLUE.

2008-04-08T16:44:00.001+08:00

I wanted you lyrics.

2008-04-08T15:15:00.002+08:00

I broke an Test tube today in Chemistry lab ! :X

Alright,today was boring x boring.
Had math test today. Pop quiz.
Oh,i got A1 for my overall mathematics,
& i'm very lucky,that my overall combine science i just nice pass.
50/100! Cool,left with history,that i've yet to take back,that determins whether how many subjects i fail. :X English too,hopefully i'll past,but i'm sure to fail english for CT2. Reason being,i din't study for the test,i thought i'd be a passage. :[ But it wasn't damn! It's report writing. :(

Today's mood was alright. Nothing much to post for today actually.
Thus,bye. :D

I wanted you to be there when i fall,

I wanted you to show me what i need,

I wanted you,i wanted you.

I wanted you to see me through it all.

I wanted you to be the one i love.

I wanted you hold me in my sleep.

Will your love ever last?

Will you hold me till the end of time?

Will you be there for me,always?

Will you ever let my hand go?

Will you walk me through everything,hand in hand?

2008-04-07T22:27:00.001+08:00

I'm not posting today,Monday blues.
Offta do my stuffs,bye. : ]
Stupid stupid Monday blues.
God,i'm going crazy. :[

Mood is alittle off,

I guess it's the biggest hit ever.

Forget it,shall be alright soon,perhaps.

2008-04-06T19:14:00.002+08:00

Alright,got lectured by dad early in the noon & back then,just now.
Damn,what the fuck did i make you so unhappy about? You kept having the old navie thinking that i'm still the old old me,the unchanged me. Like,you won't understand anyway,forget it. : [ We just don't click anyway. Tsk.

Oh well,today is alright.
I can have my sleep till quite late in the noon actually.
However,due to the noise pollution,i can't friggin'get back to sleep.
Like you know,fucktards. :(
I hate people interupting me when i'm sleeping.
Or purposely make some stupid irritating noise to wake me up.
This is so stupid. Duhhh! >:#

Alright,Physics(Light) was alright,caught some balls today,well done. (:
Went home & slack-d under my block with sihua.
Had some talkings. Very long din't do that already,am glad. [:
Back home,mom isn't in,same goes to aunt & weilun.
Dad & baby sister is ready to go out for cycling. Bored.
Rot at home,did some ironing & drank strawberry milk.
Oh,so nice. Heavenly! :DDDDDDD Meiji strawberry milk is cool! :DDD

I'm super duper ultra bored now. Damn,alright. Shall end here! Bye! :D

2008-04-05T19:48:00.002+08:00

Well,thanks for those who have encouraged me so much through my tagboard. It's really appreciated. :D I'd try my very best to work hard & do the very best i can. : ] Thanks alot,really. :D

Well,had chemistry tuition from 12-2 pm today.
Baby came to fetch me after my tuition. :D
Happy Happy x 12345678910! :DDDDDD
I hope things would get better & better as times passes.
I really start to love him more & more each day laas! :D
Even though we would have small trivial tiff,but i tell myself.
If its' not for this trivial tiff that came in between us,i wouldn't understand him much more & no communication would take place,understanding towards each other too. I Love ZHILIN. :D

Alrightttt,i shall not say anymore,i needa finish my disc now! :DDD Bye! :D

2008-04-04T17:38:00.006+08:00

"为你做不可能的事,为你失去理智,为你我做了太多的傻事..."

I start to have alot of doubt in myself. Sometimes i really wonder if things will go the way i wanted it to be? However i've finally gotten the answer after much thinking. No,it'd never be. Nothing will go the way you wanted it. It's of how much effort you've put in. However,sometimes even the hard work you put in,it'd also never go the way you wanted it to be. Nothing is of your control,nothing.

Just like my relationship & my studies. Yes,i did improve on all my subjects,everything. But you see,even if my teacher were to give me the chance to take O level maths next year,i still needa put in extra x 2 hard work,compare to others. I needa catch up with them,alot. It's not tweeny weeny tiny bits,it's alot. Yes,alot. If i really wanna persude it. I needa really strive double times harder than others. If i really want,i knew i could. However,the main problem in my now is,i'm mentally un-prepare. I've got to self confidence at all. N-O-N-E!

Relationship,i thought i could be happy always,but it's never what you think. Think occur unexpectedly. You can't predict the future,least the heaven knows where the story goes. It's all compromises to make this relationship work out well. If nothing such were given in,nothing such would have happen. If not perserverence,nothing such would have happen at all. A relationships depends alot on trust,faith and mostly importantly,having a love not lust. Without trust,many things will occur,i.e quarrels will occur even if it's a small trival matter. And i dare to admit that,i gone through all this before,without emper trust,nothing will turn out will & the way you wanted it to be. A relationship needs alot of good foundation. Needa alot of trust. And until now,i still don't have 100% trust towards my partner. It's easy saying having trust,but when the matter really occurs on you,it's really hard to forgive & forget when you actually realise something that would make you really turn-off & get to know that you're being hide in the dark. When truth reveals,it's hard to accpect the fact. I ,too,really tried every means to have more trust towards my partner,but i knew the process is really tough & hard. You'd have more perserverence than others.

From there,i started to grew up mentally.

I needa have my own stand,firmly rooted to the grown.

What i wanted,persue it.

What i think i can't,just try my best.

What i think i can,might not be true,hard works shows what you want.

Main idea of this post is : Have firm stand. Don't get distracted half-way. Everything are not of you to control. You needa put in much more effort to see the things you want.

I've decided,i won't cry if i can't take O math paper at the very end,cause i knew,i've tried my best already. It's the best i've never had. : ]

After so much of reflection and deep thoughts,i've finally found a way out & i happen to realise that,i've navie thinking back then. It's really silly of me to have the thinking that,you'll get what you want,cause everything is of your control. Bullshit. Nothing such will happen. It's all wishful thinking.

Baby you put me through so many emotions,ups and downs.

Lonely and despair,mixtures of hate yet love.

But i really wanna thank you.

For making me understand so much after those great emotions i've gone through. Lemme understand so much. Lemme know that i'm actually that silly & naive. Thanks for not blaming me,instead giving lea-way. Thanks for every little things you've done for me back then till now. No words could express how much i love you. No words can spell how my heart is feeling right now,this moment. Thanks for letting me go to so many meaningful deeps thoughts.

With all my life,i'll love you through forever. I'll never let you leave. I'd never let you to go with other nor pushing you away anymore. Each time i see you leaving,the back-view of yours,i can't help but to hold back that tears & tell myself,everything would be okay the moment you left. Having that thinking that you turn your back on me,leaving me for her. It hurt deep down. But i'll stop this thinking,cause i'm not a small girl anymore. I might look like one,who needa alot of care,yes i'm. But i'm mentally independent.

I've widen the view of mine.

Look a-far & you'll see nicer view from that small view you always had ,before.

It's brighter and fresher.

Start afresh,my aim. :)

2008-04-04T16:53:00.003+08:00

I feel like crying so much,suddenly.
I'm down with too much stress,
no matter how much i wanted to distract myself from schoolworks.
Those things never ever seems to dissappear from my mind.
It keep bugging me.
I wanna stop thinking about it,but i can't.
Those split headache that keep occuring,i can't stop it.
I kept eating panadol,perhaps it's of no use already.
Perhaps i've spolit the usage of it last time,by eating 10 panadols at one go.
I'm stupid i know. Damn me. Kill me please.
Digg my head out & wash it clean.
Clear my memory spaces.
Stop me from thinking,i hate unwanted stupid thinkings.
I wanna stop my thinking,right now,this very moment! D:
I'm so sad. I wanna wanna wanna stop all the T-H-I-N-K-I-N-G! :(

Split headache sucks.
Stress is even worst!
Damn!

2008-04-04T13:45:00.002+08:00

Actually i din't intend to attend school today.
However due to some stupid reasons being,i decided to go to school.
Although my freaking cb headache kills like fuck,but i ate 2 panadols down & headed for school.

None of the taxi wanna fetch us today,thus we bused to school.
I think we shall start taking bus to school already,if not we're gonna have alot lf unwanted holes in our pocket already,am i right sihua? :)

Reached school at about 7.10? About five more minutes & we're gonna be late. However,we ain't late,we're still counted as early. :)
Took 246 to school & timing are all just nice. :D

First period of the day,it kills me. I'm gonna flunk my CT2 this time round for sure. The report writing,i mess up everything. & i don't even know the fucking idiotic lameshitxz format,how am i gonna score,you tell me?! Damn!

Second period,sophia's damn fed'up & she went to confront Dawn face to face. Sihua was shocked & she kept asking how come things turn out so sudden? Lol! Well,i guess it's a good lecture for Dawn. Who ask her to be so stuck up. & actually have the guts to bad mouth sophia behind sophia's back. Tsk,pathetic. We've acutally let go alot of matters for upteen times already,however she took everything as for granted. She thought we wouldn't find her troubles,if she really think this way,then she's very wrong. Her biggest mistake is to actually said that phrase "Brainless las! No wonder go to 3D" Ho! Just this phrase alot will make her suffer like hell. She said she's a christian & she shouldn't bad mouth others or gossip behind others back,what look at what she've done & you'll know she's a disgrace of her own religion which she respected so much on. She say as a christian they shouldn't tell lies,however she told her mom lies & went to meet her boyfriend. This is very very wrong of her,who asked her to said so many "dao li" to us last year. Now we can shoot her back already lorrs. If only she watch her mouth & actions,such things won't have happen. This is just a warning,i think if there's anytime,she'd have alot to suffer already. I bet she wouldn't dare already. And i actually hate her for being sucha hardcore copycat. Like wao lao! Aiya,forget it! I don't wanna say anymore. Drop this topic. >:@

Math lessons,everyone back to original sitting position. Ms jenny ng gave jungui,wang ming & me 'O' level mathematics paper to try out. & Ms jenny ng says,if my results are able to settle down & have the constant good results,most probably i'm able to take O level maths next year & learn mathematics with 3C during term 3. How i wish i could. But i doubt my ability. I wonder if i can really do it. Facing this much of stress,i'm dying soon. Just that paper alone,i'm gonna have more than enough to stress about already. But i thank her for putting so much hope on me & think that i'm able to do it. I just hope to do well in my upcoming mid-year exam & score with flying colours,so that i can have maths lessons with sihua already & clear my O level maths by next year. But i'm stil deciding whether to take up this challenge anot. I really doubt my ability. :(

Aiya,lessons are stressful enough to imagine. Omg. Kill me now please!
Or give me a smarter & faster brain to think! :(

Bye.
I'm stress like fuck!

2008-04-03T21:06:00.008+08:00

❤This guy,he's gonna be my love.

Now & forever. : ]

I love him.

Linzhilin.

& the road,

he promised to walk with me,

till i say i don't need him.
But i needa to say.

I needa him to be by my side

for everyday.

I needa him to say

that he'll

Stay with me & love me,

through everyday.

& I wanna hold him,

till the fears in me subsides

& it never stays.

This is my love boy,with him i'm happy nuff' .

Attend MC,school.
I din't went to school today,had a friggin' headache early in the morning & was drop dead worn out. Woke up at 12 plus. Was still down with headache. Damn,ate two panadols & drank the cooling water. :D Smsed baby & settle down to watch hong kong shows.

After which,bathed & headed for tuition. It's very nice for baby to bring me to my tuition place & for him to wait for me under the void deck with sucha windy & rainny day. It's so touchin' & i swear i love him to bits & pieces. He's so lovable please,what a nice gift from god. :DD I'd treasure it very much alright! :D

After my tuition,we headed to kopitiam to grab our dinner. Baby did a very stupid post that made me laugh out loud. Hahas! He's damn fucking cute! I really love spending my everyday with him,i couldn't figure out why,he's just so cute! I really wanna spend my everyday with him.

Alright,took quite a number of photos. (Includes sihua & baby.)
However,the friggin' internet don't wanna cooperate & it goes the same to the webpage.

It uploads so long & the pictures are all not in correct position after shifting it.
Makes me so damn mad please! Nevermind. I shall upload the photo tomorrow. :DD

Lovess!

I should be more than satisfy for that everything he has done for me.

"no its not selfish to ask for more, one more night,one more day,one more smile, on your Face.. "

I can never have yesterday,& i'll treasure everything,from the starting, back from yesterday till now & forever & make this relationship last through forever,

heaven knows our plans,

heaven knows what the future Holds,or least where the story goes.

I'm not gonna care,i'm just going to spend my life with him

till the day after forever.

2008-04-01T16:41:00.003+08:00

Alright,home right now.

Accompany Joyce just now to Jurong point to have a so-called heart-to-heart talk session,kindda able to consol her abit,cause she's just simply very very sad due to some reason being. Need not tell you guys,it's for me to know & for you to not-know. (: Unless she tells you so,if not too bad then. (: Cheer up yo,Joyce.(:

I'm now so so uber bored,why? Cause i've got nothing to do.

Oh ya! Jungui,he says that he can see that i'm under alot of pressure & stress,due to schoolwork. This is so saddening upon hearing him saying this. Mainly is because,he says that i look more & more hagard each day. & they actually say that i look underweight(cause according to what they say,they say that i'm tall & my weight is only 49[last weight,i weight] & this 49 is actually not acceptable & instead of loosing weight,i needa gain more weight.) Which is like,i don't think that i look underweight,i look more of a going-to-put-on-weight-alrd , girl.

They pressurise me to have a proper daily meal but also at the same time,they don't wana me to drop my weight further more,cause it'd look nasty. Issit so if i were to decrease my weight till 47? I don't think so right? Oh-well,i still think that i'm fat,how? Oh ya! & the funny part is,they keep claiming that suffer from eating disorder,which is so ridiculous! Omfgxzxzx! :O Well,i'll still continue to study hard laas,but it's just that i'll stop all the fatty-oily tempting foods already. I'll control my weight till it reaches my desire weight. (: Exercise more yo! :DD

NAPFA,Next week.
Mid-year few more weeks to go.
& fyi. I got 21/40 for my physics.
Which is not the desire marks i wanted.
It's a very dissapointing marks i gotten,though i pass. :(
I needa work even harder,cause i know the hardwork i put in is still not enough.
Jiayous bah,everyone. (:

Oh ya,i'll be catching Shutter tomorrow with peers. I don't know if baby is going not,i don't think so. Cause he's having his Basketball training tomorrow,which means timing will clash. So,i claim that he's not going.

I guess,i'm shifting back to Livej soon.
But i promise it'll will definitely not be a Prvt journal. (:
So sorry,i know i'm fickle minded. :3
I guess from tomorrow onwards,i'll be posting at Livej.
Look out for posts over-there. (:

2008-03-31T22:02:00.002+08:00

Met up with baby love just now. I'm super duper unlike myself today,why uhrs? I don't really know the reason why too,just being bit too hyper,HA! : ]

Oh yeah,i'm so friggin' bored now,cause! He's doing his stuff & me,i'm simply rotting yo! :[ How saddening can it be to be alone,facing this bloody hell laptop,doing simply oh-so-boring thing you see.& that stupid cousin of mine,kept snoring,oh my goddes,save me from hell! :[

Damn,when will my hair grow longer? Longer than the length it's at now? When when when? I wanna my hair to grow longer & faster! Pace up abit laaas,stupid slow pork hair! :[ Opps! Cannot scold,later grow even slower,okay crap i know,whatever just ignore me & read the post la! :DDD
*Opps! Attitude seh!* Hehehe.

Why are songs nowadays so damn less ar? I want alot alot alot alto of nicey songs loaded in my laptop! Damn-you! I'm so bored now,i see this phrase repeating & repeating over & over again,now do something to stop me from chanting,rawr! :[

Oh ya! I forgotten to tell you guys something! I'm damn damn damn happy today. Twinny & i is being praised by Ms Jenny Ng(Maths Teacher) that we've done well for our CT2,as the paper is a very difficult paper,& we manage to Cling at least 20 & above. It's a well done thing to her. [: & i swear,she's a very good maths teacher as well as a DM,reason being is because,she have everyone's interest at heart. She is really a caring teacher & it's very very nice of her to gave a us a card,complimenting me & twinny that we've done well. & she say,my hardwork has pay off & she sees that i'm able to cling P1 or P2 during N level maths if i continue this hardwork. I really thank her for those words of affirmation & to compliment me. I must really really work harder to not disspoint her. [: Jiayous FLT! :DDDD

I'll be getting back most of the paper tomorrow so wish FLT LUCKS! :DDDD
Hopes are still visible,Believe in yourself. [:
4A1s are still possible during mid year,Jiayous! :D

It's sucha happy-happy-happy day for me! :DDD
Yipeeyaya Yipee-yipee-ya-ya~~(Keeps chanting non-stop & she wents off)
Tada! :DDDD

2008-03-30T18:20:00.002+08:00

I'm oh-so-drop-dead-fuking-bored!
Anyone to accompany me through-out the whole entire boring shit day? :[
I've got nothing to post? Oh-ya,whatever. Tsk! :[

I'm bored x 1000000000000000000000 siol!
I'm damn bored & i'm lazy to practice my english comprehension & vocabulary,which is like so important you see. I'm having my CT2 english test this coming friday & the paper,i guess it'd be fucking difficult. Reason why i infer it this way is because,my damn-it english teacher actually have the cheek to tell the whole class that the paper will have alot of vocabulary questions,what she meant was..you needa rewrite most of the vocab inside the passage when you're answering the question. Which means,it'd be a fucking hard paper! Damn you! :[

I'm sure i'm getting back most of my common test paper this coming week alrd,damn pathetic please. :[ Wish me lucks,many many many okays! :[ I'm crying out soon. Oh-damn!

Alright,i seriously needa get that book asap,to kill time. Shitoxz. :[
Oh yeah,the new songs by Wu Ke Qun is up! :] Damn,his songs are getting nicer & nicer day by day! I love a few of his songs kindda much. So i'm going to get it uploaded as soon as i gotten them in a folder in imeem yo! [: Stay tune yo yo yo! :D

Ciao. [:

The book, Abandoned by Anya Peters.

2008-03-29T21:08:00.003+08:00

A Novel by Anya Peters,Harper UK. Retail price : $18

"Abandoned by her young mother,Anya is raised by her aunt--the women she calls her "Mummy". But her place as an adopted child is not welcomed by her uncle,who abuses her emotionally & sexually. When "Mummy" leaves one day,Anya is forced to fend for herself and start life from scratch on the streets. The Bestselling novel is an enigmatic tale of how the human sprit can emerge victorious even in the bleakest moments. "

Quote from : Seventeen Magz. :)

Well,i think this book will be a,when-you-start-to-read-you-wouldn't-wanna-stop-reading-it book. I'm sure it'd be a very interesting one,cause after i read the summary of the book,i already find it very intersting. I bet it must be. :D

I'm going to get this book next week with sihua love. [ : I & her are kindda crazy over reading story books,provided it's interesting ones & those which inspires us in life ones. And not those boring & those which makes you wanna sleep kind. This is the ideal book i'm searching for! Hoorayy! & i'm getting it like,next weeeeekkk! :D *beammmms!*

Oh ya! I forgotten to blog out that i saw MR.TUAFEK TODAY! @ Jurong west's 7-eleven. He calls upon my name when i passes by him. I'm shocked,totally! I'm so gald that i finally sees him & it's been ages i last met up with him. So,i needa plan sometime to go back & visit him. :DDD I LOVE MR.TUAFEK! :D

Fyi,he's the only teacher ever i respected so much & i liked so much. He's really a great teacher. It's your luck to have him as a teacher. He's like my second daddy & i love him. & so does my Fivesomes does. :D We respects him a hell tons. :DDD

With much loves,

Felicia.t :D

2008-03-29T19:46:00.003+08:00

Hellos. [ :

I'm bored now,bye! :[

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Oh,i'm back to post again,just now i'm uber bored,i don't know what to post,so i din't post much. I'm not better in mood & i've thought of something to post. :DDDDD

Firstly,in the morning,i woke up & set off to tuition at approximately 10.45am.

When to sihua's house & wait for her. On the way there,i saw Yuchen(sihua,sister.) Say hi to her & quicken my steps to sihua house,cause i'm gonna be late soonnnnnn! :O

After i reached,then i realise,she's not down yet,so i brought a packet of drink to cure my thirst. HA!

Sat down & waited for about 15 mins for her arrival. listen to 'Yang cong' by Yang Zhong Wei. A new song anyway. :] & then set off to tuition. Was paying full attention today,needa catch up with the pace of my tuition. I'm lagging way way behind.

Going to Popular tomorrow to buy physic & chem assesment book to do. I needa really buck up yo! Oh ya! I forgotten that i have tuition from 12-4! Damn! Four hours straight. Shitxz man! I'm so drop-dead tired! :{ Help me. Well,i'll jiayou,cause i'm having my Mid-year in 4 weeks time. It's neither very fast nor very slow. It's just in a blink of an eyes time. Shitxzzz! :{

Physics & Chem,i'm sure to flunk the both of them.

CT2 this term,i'm sure to mess up & flunk the entire paper. & damn i tell you,i'll be having my mid year chinese oral soon. Needa Jiayou!

As for CT2 english paper,it's just next friday. I feel like killing the crystal tan. She's sucha lousy teacher. I wanna change a english teacher! Damn! :{

Oh,i meet up with baby just now after my tuition. We went to houyu korkor's house. Baby,sorry that i kindda left you out alone while we're at korkor's house. :X I'm not use to it. Sorry. I promise there won't be a next time okays? D: I misses you so much now,come back home soon to keep me accompany okays? I miss you hell lots.

--------

I wanna go on tour with you next time. I wanna spent my everyday with you for the next following years. I wanna be with you everyday & night,as you promised me that you'll be with me through forever. You say you'll love me,alone. The things you gave your promises,you must fulfilled it for me. For i know,we'll last. I needa you by myside,everyday,to takecare of me. Cause you know,i'm weak in health. :[ I needa you to pamper me..

Stay with me,for very very very long.

I wanna work this relationship out. I wanna it to last,for very very very long.

For acsdfrfref years with him.

For,this is my biggest wish. :D

Fulfilled everything for me,thanks god. :D

For i love this boy,to the maximum. I LOVE HIM. :D

stop the jealousy,stop the quarreling.

start the love,forward to the future.

bring me to places with love that lasts forever.

With him,it's the greatest happiness i had. :D

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2008-03-28T17:01:00.001+08:00

♥ Addidas Candy. [ :

♥ Baby-G. [ :

Ain't this watches nice? :D I'm gonna get them,up on my hand,yo! :DD Save save save dollar sign! [: I'm gonna get them,once i gotten enough money money. [:

2008-03-28T15:25:00.002+08:00

Back home,dead tired. :[

Bathed & everything,& finally sat down to use computer. & finally i got rid of my home tuition,this will perharps be of some help. I'm getting alittle tired nowadays. Having headaches,on & off,now & then. This is so shityxz! :[

I wanna have new songs,i'm bored listening to the same damn old songs in my folders. This is so pathetic to have the same old songs,repeating over & over again in my media player. :[ I'm still waiting for Jungui to help me with the Downloading of songs,he's sucha slow tortise,definitely he is one,but excluding Mathematics. I know that he's sucha pro,but no need to like that one right? Must fastern up your pace abit,i'm getting weary of waiting already. Rawrrrr! >:[

Before leaving school compound,Aarron danced infront of us,well,he got learn dancing one okay,mai siao siao! HA. Then we're in class 3A,watching him perform his dance to us & kept asking us to join,he said that if he isn't wrong,it's 165 for three months. Like,wow! So cheap uhrs? Ha! Then sophia(My new twinny,yo!) says that she's considering whether to join or not,HA. [ : Jiayous if you join them yo! [ :

& also,i offically had a twinny,named after Sophia.Lim.Zi.Qi! [ :
I love twinny yo! [ : Do takecare while you're away from singapore,in malaysia. [ :

I'm so hungry now,my stomach is grumbling like .. ..
Okay,i don't know how to describe it,thus forget it [ :
Gonna shuffle my feet & get ready to grab some food to stuff my stomach full. [ :
Needa go,takecare & byebye! :DD

___

Baby,you're the only thing i ever thought of everyday. You're always in my mind,constantly appearing. You're simply hard to be erased off. I won't wanna have another quarrel with you anymore. I wanna happy moments with you,not having sucha cold shoulder from me to you. I wanna change for you. I wanna feel nothing when you tell me about any other girls,i wanna not get jealous,i wanna just be the normal me. I don't wanna quarrel with you over anybody elses. But i can't be a human without any jealousy feeling. I'm a girl & i must have jealousy. Cause i'm a genuine girl,i have feelings too. So,please promise me,you won't do things that will make me jealous anymore. I really had enough of her,her,HER. I just needa you to make me feel that i'm really just the only one. I just needa you to rest assure me that i'm the only only thing you're always thinking of,& not anyone elses. I needa know that i'm truely yours & i'm somone you can never so simply chuck at the back of you mind,promise me all this will you? Don't say that you're afraid you can't promise me,cause you've dissapoint me upteen times. I don't wanna hear all this,i just wanna know,did what i always said being taken into an account/heart of yours? Are you serious about it? This are all what i wanna know. Please lemme know.
Baby,you're love.
I needa you know,you just simply can't be chucked at the back of my mine,cause you're so addictive. [:

When will it be?

2008-03-27T20:08:00.002+08:00

Fivesomes! :D
I wanna Fivesomes outing TOGETHER,not more or less. It have been a long time since we last met already. D': When are we going out again? I wanna catch up those memories with y'all. >:) I miss y'all a hell tons please. I love you Girls,meet up soon alright? [ :

Oh ya,i fogotten to Thanks Theresa for borrowing me the Sugar & spice story book to read. I'm always so bored,thus i decided to read story books to improve my english. Heh Heh. :D It's been a 123456789 years since i last visit Library. Oh well,not that dramatic,just a few months. Few months is quite a long period of time already yo. :O Well,nevermind about it.

My english is deproving,i needa buck buck buck up up up! :O This is so saddening because,my english teacher in school,is the lousiest teacher i ever came across. D: I'l definitely fail if i depend on her to teach me english. I'll DEFINITELY FAIL. :( & i musn't fail .

Today's Physics & D&T test,i fucking got everything screwed up i guess. I cannever get top in class anymore for D&T,this for sure. :( I'm so depress because of this. Is not that i din't went to memories the formula,is the tricky questions that tricks you & will make you go huh-what-is-all-this-about-how-to-do? Sigh,wish me lucks then,just wish that i won't fail. That's all. CT2,i can drop the idea of having 4 A1s already.

I'm dead tired. D: I hate my cousin,he's sucha ass-hole. Questions he don't know how to do,he don't wanna fucking get his ass out of the chair to automatically ask me how the question is being done or whatsoever. I think i can kill myself anytime. He's really an ass-hole. If i were to be a teacher in future,i think the students are really pathetic to actually have me as their teacher,cause i've simply got no PATIENCE in teaching. NONE. Oh well,srop this topic,i won't be a teacher when i grow up anyway. It's not in my plan,so forget it. I'll be a photograhper instead. [ : Wish me luck yo! [ :

Alright,i shall end here.

Sometimes i wish i could survive on my own,i could stand on my own,not depending/relying on you. I don't wanna become anybody's burden. I hate to become a burden of anyone. So,from now on,i'll be more independence. I shall not rely on you anymore. I'll be more independence. [ :

2008-03-27T15:23:00.002+08:00

Hi,i'm home. [ :

I realise something. :O!
My english is better when i post in Livej.
Why arhs? Hmmm,is there something wrong up there,i suppose not right? Oh well,i'm not going to tuition alrd. Firstly,i'm lazy. Secondly,the pretty friend of mine is not feeling well. So..NO TUITION LORRR!

I guess,i needa go back to Livej. to post alrd. Cause my english seems to be better over there. :D Let's see about it. :) I'm uber bored now. No entertainments,nothing! This is so sad please. :( *Give super sad face!*
I needa something to cheer me up yo & brighten my day up manxz! Sian-d.
Saw (fill in the blank yourself) while i'm waiting for bus. Seems so unfriendly & have those (fill in the blank yourself.) look. Scary. :O Nevermind,forget about it.

Oh ya,i realise that nowadays,more & more people are getting that zinc bag uhrs,why issit so? Hey,i wanna get one too leh. Ha! Lols! But..i needa reconsider yo. [ : Musn't spend money like water alrd,needa spare a thought for my parents too yo! [ : I'm lazy to do my homeworks & etcs. This week is a lazy week,hais! & Mid-year-exam is round the corner please! NAPFA too! D: *shag*

My stamina=shit,now. I fucking run 17 mins plus plus for my 2.4km run today. Very very uber lousy,i know. Cause i'm fat ma! D': Arh,whatever. I needa train train train,hope i don't it a empty one. [ :

Alright,nuff' of my craps,i wanna go off now. BYE! :D

Oh-pink-and-short Nike water bottle. [ :

2008-03-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

That oh-pink-and-short Nike water bottle from Baby. (: Thanks very much. [ :
Well,he specially brought that for me,just to make sure that i do bring water bottles to school & to drink water everyday,cause i don't drink water,always the case. Thus,this is how the bottle happen to came about & i turn into it's owner,just in the means of time. Ho! I'll take good care of you,you oh-pink-and-short Nike bottle. [ :

Well,met up with him just now,he's kindda..okay. Nothing special to elaborate about,just mainly i knew that he keep staring at me like as if i'm .. arh,whatever. *stop looking at me laas,will shy one lehhs,i girl okays! :( * Ha,i'm kinddang yo! (:

Well,i'll be going to school tomorrow gonna ask Jungui to teach me Physics. Well,i'm sure i'm going to flunk the whole entire CT2. Too much bad occurences. Well well well,forget it. Gone means gone,nahmind. Forgive & forget. Easy to forgive,hard to forget,but i'd try very hard! :)

Okays,needa go off.
Bye! [ :

This naughty geek,bash! :)

2008-03-26T14:45:00.003+08:00

Alright,i'm home! (:

I'm super obedient now-days. I've been going home quite early recently. Well,not for consecutive-few-days laas. But well,i've made improvement anyway right? So i shall continue this good pratice yo! (:

For the consecutive few days,i kept forgetting to bring/do my chinese homework. Something smiliar to letter writting. I kept telling myself Felicia-please-kindly-do-your-chinese-homework. Yet nothing seems to came popping outta my mind,reminding me to do my chinese homework! >:@ shitxz me pretty please! Rawrrrr.

However! Now,i remember about this homework thingo,but yet to start writting it,not going to do now. Perhaps later. I'm serious,weird. Mainly because i love a peace of mind,i needa silent place to actually absorb what i study & to revise or do my homework. So...night-time is still the best. (:

I'm that fugly me. I've scars all over my body. From head to toes. Real scars,not kiddang. & also,i've heartaching scars,this is the worst of all. Well,i hope everything will soon be back to normal. I hate those oh-you're-wrong-wrong-wrong-pin-pointing thingo. Now that the fact is,we're even further than expected(what i think.) . Things will definitely occure when we're trying to get closer. Will this all stop? Was it a curse or something? Freak man! >:@

Okay okay,needa go. (: Loves.

No,you don't know what he actually feels like.

2008-03-25T18:58:00.002+08:00

No,you don't know how it actually really felt like.
why are problems coming up one after another?
why are problems coming up one after another?
When will it gonna stop? I just needa it to stop asap,please.
I'm sick & tired of it,i'm getting weary alrd. Stop everything for me please.

Well,today is pretty alright. Drop the problem yesterday & everything will be fine for me,definitely. BUT!That fucking occurances stupidly occure just at night. Like,fuck la! Why night? I can't fucking get to sleep immediately no matter how much i wanted. Well,perhaps fate doesn't want me to run away from reality that i've gotta face. It's really stupid to run away from reality,yet. It's much more stupid to face up bravely toward reality,mainly it's because,you'll get much more hurt than you could have expected. That's worst.

I din't rather not know or to came across that stupidly tag that made me , oh-you're-so-great! you-did-a-good-job! stuffs like that. This is so,oh-yeah-like-as-if-you-could-tolerate-it,no-i-ain't-that-great. Like..you understand? This is the stupiest thing i never wanna ever came across about. Mainly,it'd not only make me sad,it also make me feel so foolish & stupid,utterly.

Yesterday,i wish i could delete it away from my mind. Reminding myself of those "stupid silly stuffs" make me so, hey-you're-petty-idiot,thing you know? I don't like this kindda of feelings,it's really really hard to tolerate. Yeah,although i know,it's just a simple & stupid tag,but it somehow make my heart break into two big pieces. The feeling,it's like you never ever came across before,do you understand? & i hated you from top to bottom right at the moment. It's not that i really wish or wanna kick up that big fuss,i did try to control it. But do you fucking know how painful it's to acutally tolerate & swallow things down on my own? I can tell you now,it's uber painful & uneasy. I don't wish to cry anymore,i don't wanna shed anymore tears,cause i'm totally sick & tired of tears rolling down my cheeks,sitting at a coner,crying all alone like it's of nobody's business. It's the stupiest thing a girl can ever do. The foolishest thing you could ever thought. Well,i know guys won't understand sucha 'chimology' thingo. Forget it,you guys won't understand anyway.

This could be my whole chuck of rubbish,if you think it's. Don't comment about it,it's my blog,& i've got my own say,you're just , oh-you've-got-no-say-and-please-shut-up person. So kindly shut your ass up if you don't have anything nice to comment on it about.

Well,I don't blame you & stop blaming yourself. I've got up to no use at this point of time to actually repriment yourself till like you're not even worth a single cent when you actually worth alot in your parents eyes. Just because of a me,you critizes youself till this sate,it ain't worth anyway. Things have happened anyway,you can't rewind back time no matter how much money you had,you could never buy the precious moment you wanted back the most. Gone means gone. & now it's goes the same here. The incident already took place & i've finished throwing my oh-you're-so-pity tantrum,it's time for me to stop that stupid missy act,cause i'm no longer on,long long time ago. Yes,i may be a spoilt,but you can't change the fact that i'm one,cause that's the fact you can't change. I've already did my best,i've tried my very best to stop throwing my tantrum around nowadays. If it was in the past,i would have gone much more wilder than you could have imagine.

I've though too great about myself. Always i thought i could stop all those missy tantrums & being so wildful. Yes,i admit i do still have my tantrums & attitude,but i'm really trying hard to change now. Things ain't the same as i thought it was in the past. I gotta bring myself to the presence,out of the past. I gotta face up reality,although it's rather hard to accept,but i've no choice but i've gotta. I needa more time than anyone elses need. I needa more care & concern than others did although i always thought that i could survive my own without a single care & concern.

But now,you don't see the point of it. You're purely going on the way you used to be in the past. I'm somehow left out in your life although you kept emphazing ,i-mention-about-you-to-who-and-who-everyday-it's-true-and-it's-up-to-you-to-choose-whether-to-believe-me-not. this sorts of thing. But you never know,i'm at the back for your shadow,you said you needed me in your life,but i can't see the point of it. Yes,i do still believe you,& stop being so mean to yourself,it won't help anyway. It will only worsen our relationship. It's already facing so much of ups & downs,so stop all those self-demoralising words/phrases already. & now,it's not about promises being fulfilled not,it's about,do you actually take those promises to heart & do you actually really went to remember it,stuffs like that. It's not about you don't wanna give my promises next time round just because of what-so-ever reasons behind it. I don't want to know,i just needa know what i really wanted to know. Do you actually take what i say into account?

As i've said,it happened yesterday. & the yesterday which is 24th of March 2008,don't exist in my calender anymore. I've have been cleanly clean off my mind & memory. I don't remember a single shit. I just remember,i needa remind myself. I'm still the happy me,the Felicia Toh Ying Hui that nobody can ever beat me down anymore. I'm not the weakest,yet not the strongest. Just trying to put up a brave front infront of everyone. Also,i wanna stop being so stupid & foolish to cry behind the screen. It's the most most most most stupidest thing i could ever ever ever thought of.

Well,i guess it's rather emo emo now. Oh-no-i'm-not! I'm perfectly fine( i ain't sure if i'm deciving myself,well who cares!? ) now. I'm neither a skin lost or flesh lost,so i must stop those emo emo post now! Right now,this moment,FELICIATOHYINGHUI! >:)

Now,let the picture do the talking. (:

2008-03-25T17:58:00.004+08:00

Okays,the pictures are all up now,you're free to cope(ps,sihua & sophia).

I love you girls yo! :D

Had a great day with you girls yo! :DDDD

♥Stay close,don't go.